I can't trust myself when it comes to love . In fact I think I'm incapable of feeling the splender it creates and rather just experience the reality of a commitment that whilst I'm proud of upkeeping, continues to take a heavy toll on ever fleeting idea that maybe someday I could feel the rewarding side.
Maybe it's the girls I choose! complicated in their medicated state, they look so beautiful when the pain has been shut off yet the wisdom and strength gained from the pain still shines through. I try and be this strong but to me the reality of this life, one with constant inebriation, is mostly for show as my brain has more time but I only have time for you, so to construe the drug inducing of the 'better' me, leaves your ships captain navigating on a notion provided by amphetamines. Which saw us and tucked us in to this darkening of our hearts for which i will always review until the next time we meet and so I'm racing into life through to a time where the sunny days are endless, where fields of what ever your want planted will always be present and this will be my Muriel to your splender that I never received, Just to show you, to me, how much you really mean.
Maybe it's the girls I choose! complicated in their medicated state, they look so beautiful when the pain has been shut off yet the wisdom and strength gained from the pain still shines through. I try and be this strong but to me the reality of this life, one with constant inebriation, is mostly for show as my brain has more time but I only have time for you, so to construe the drug inducing of the 'better' me, leaves your ships captain navigating on a notion provided by amphetamines. Which saw us and tucked us in to this darkening of our hearts for which i will always review until the next time we meet and so I'm racing into life through to a time where the sunny days are endless, where fields of what ever your want planted will always be present and this will be my Muriel to your splender that I never received, Just to show you, to me, how much you really mean.