Alright...more and more I'm starting to wonder if I can handle Josh being on the road. I love him and I know he loves me. I've been hurt in the past (from others and even from him) and with all honesty, I DON'T TRUST ANYONE....period. Not even my own family. I watch these videos of "behind the scenes" shit and what do I see? Fucking slutty ass bitches trying to get a piece of ass just so they can have their fucking claim to fame. And it's not only the larger, known bands who get this kind of attention. I see it all the time with local bands and shit. Sorry girls, if this is you. But you need to learn that life doesn't revolve around you and your pussy and you need to find your own man to fuck. Josh has never cheated on me, but he has let a girl that he met at the ONE show I wasn't at make me insecure about us...the secrecy, the lies...I have a hard time moving on. And now that we're bringing a child into this world, how can I deal with the mistrust? No matter how hard I try, I can't trust...even if he never ever does anything wrong again, I'll never trust him. Most importantly, I don't trust girls. We're scandalous. I've fallen for the guy on stage too. I loved Josh way before I ever heard him play, but when I did see him on stage, I coudln't believe it. I couldn't wait till we got home so I could fuck him. ANd maybe this is selfish...but I don't want anyone else to have that feeling about him. I don't want girls trying to put their arms around him, try to kiss him or grope him or even try to arouse him. I want to be the only girl in the world that he can EVER be attracted to. But you know what? That's an impossible wish. Because he's already proven to me that he can develop feelings for someone, even if for a brief moment, and I'm not in his thoughts, where I should be. Damn these specials on TV that make me second guess my relationship. I know not all bands get this or not all guys fall victim to the responses of their dick. I just hope Josh is one of them who listens to his heart......
If you're in a band and have a girlfriend, have you had to deal with temptations?? And what do you do to control them?
If you're in a band and have a girlfriend, have you had to deal with temptations?? And what do you do to control them?
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Anyhoo, in the end you're just going to have to have faith in him. I know it's hard, but that's the only way. I've been hurt so many times that I can completely understand how impossibly, earth-shatteringly impossible trusting someone is, but you just have to do it. It's the only way. Without trust in one another, a relationship is nothing, you know? Hope I don't sound too preachy, but I'm a little tipsy on cough syrup (damn cold) and beer (hooray beer!).
Not a guy in a band, but the emotions going on were similar (tattoo artists have to touch other girls bodies ALL DAY sometimes....ARGH!).
It's not fun, and I never learned to deal with it. I'm just too jealous, I suppose. But I think it's pretty normal for women to feel this way, ESPECIALLY when they are pregnant! You have to keep your mate close to you, because you still have that old-world wiring in your brain - you are pregnant and vulnerable and if he leaves the cave and abandons you, a bear or a cougar or some crap could come in and kill you!
That's just me talking out of my ass, but I think the maternal side of you will amplify these emotions.
If you guys are true to each other, you should try not to worry. But it's hard.
By the way, I want to see more belly pictures! So cute.