jillamin

well, i'll start off by saying i'm feeling a little bit better than my last entry. sorry to be all dramatic n' stuff. i was in one of those irrational moods i tend to get in. you see, i found out that Michael had an account on SG and didn't tell me. Shit, I couldn't care less if he had had one...we all like the T&A right??...but i do care if he doesn't tell me....he has been perpetually spying on me since September. it wouldn't have even been so bad but he was also on here as "anonymous". like...no profile no nothing. he just had access to my journals. His argument was that it's for the public so it doesn't matter. i just think it's weird and creepy. Like, why wouldn't he have told me? ew. someone's insecure.

now, most people wouldn't break up with people for just that...but i have been noticing strange behaviors...he doesn't like me hanging out with other males...when i speak to one he could near have a fucking heart attack. not that i ever let him stop me. i decide for my god damn self. he couldn't stand being more than two days without me...some would say "awww" thats sweet...NO! it's obsessive...i need space people. I couldn't go out with my friends with out him saying something like "well why can't I come?" ...what the fuck!!! do we have to do EVERYTHING together. i dunno. i like relationships...but i really like them to be simple. i wish i could just find someone who can be just like a guy friend...but you know... you have whoopie n' stuff. men, pft.

i'm really pissed off about it all...but i can't pretend like i didn't have fun with him or care about him. He was a good time. i just wish he hadn't gotten all weird on me. I still talk to him. he wants to work things out. We are going to breakfast tomorrow...we'll see what happens. come to think of it. he's probably spying on me right now. hi mike.

Last night I went to Z's halloween party. Honestly...I wasn't really in the mood...[work has been kicking my ass latley]... so i didn't really think i would have fun. yea, wrong. It was great. I got to see a lot of old faces. everyone got really into it too. by the way, vodka tonics make the world a better place...for me at least...here are some pictures...


i was little red riding hood. the wolf and I got into a little brawl. insted of a basket of treats for grandma...I had a basket of bloody wolf parts. It was a fun idea I guess...











these were just some of my favorites. if you want to see them all then jusy mosey on over here.

The new apartment is swell. Although all I have there as of now is a bed and a lamp. i swear i'm not lazy, just a minimalist. Yea, Im full ov shit.. I'll probably start moving everything else in later on this week.

if you were wondering...
monday- drive up to Napa to see Heffe
tuesday- daggers birthday
wednesday- SG Burlesque, still deciding if i want to go
thursday- work, booooooo
friday- work, boooooooo
Saturday- work, booooooo

popeye has highlighter in his mouth right now. he's running around with it in his mouth kinda like a dog. wait for it....waaaiiitttt for it. he's growling. I KNOW, cute as fuck.

Me and the mother are eating sushi tonight. Benefits of living in Japan Town. Sushi right at the front door. I'll be missing that.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!!!!!

carly