Thursday Aug 20, 2009

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well, its been a while, and im sure many wont be upset but Jewl has officially retired from SG and nude modeling. Ive found myself with an amazing man, beginning to dance with an amazing school, and most importantly, behind the camera! Ive found my new love for photography, and ive been learning lots. Id love to shoot so if anyone would like to see...
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hayden:

AWE loverrrr! <3 good for you! no more noodies for me either hubby wont allow it! but i still think about sets here and thee i miss youuu

anticool:

That sounds amazing, congrats. Best of luck with everything.

Thursday Apr 30, 2009

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shutterfriendly:

Hi hun, just stepped in to see how your doing. Sry to hear about your troubles, he's an asshole. signed on to that tattoo page, looks really cool. I'll have to figure out and post my pictures of my tattoo's just got another one on my arm. Trying to figure out when I can go to Jersey to have a shoot with you. Have you had many shoots lately? E-mail me smile

haydin:

heyyy its been a while how are you doing love? Hows dance going for you? <3

Tuesday Apr 28, 2009

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bedheadchicken:

I bet you were amazing. congratulations.

humguy:

Congratulations. I'm so glad that everything worked out well and that your family was there to be part of it.

From exec

So what do you think of the reactions from your first set?? Any word on you becoming a SG? eeek

Saturday Feb 21, 2009

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first and foremost THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO SENT ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY COMMENTS <3 I LOVE YOU ALL smile

So, yesterday felt like it was 320940198471089374 hours long, and it actually wasnt a bad thing. shocker i know smile. I had practice with asia and john, then amanda. I went to history class and took notes while everyone took a test, and then i finally went home...
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zoey:

Thankyou soo much for my lovely comment :o) xx

kilcher:

Happy Belated Birthday!! Sounds like a great one. smile

Monday Feb 16, 2009

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so, its 2:22 in the morning, and it just hit me reallly hard.

I was just sitting here, and i guess i had a flashback cause saw myself walking up grandma's stairs, opening the door, and seeing Paul sitting in the green velvet love seat that everyone fought over. "Heyyyyyy" his voice overpowered everyones. He'd always give you a kiss on the...
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darkriver:

Time will heal you doll. You never really get over loss, you just get past it. I'm here for you.

kilcher:

Many *hugz*. Hold on to the good times. smile

Thursday Feb 12, 2009

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evenin, sorry its been a little while since ive updated. Today was the hardest day of my life. like legit. Today was Paul's funeral. They talked about him, they told stories about his ridiculous memories, and in between everyone they played "bad to the bone" and "i wanna rock". That was definetly him. to a tee. I cant really explain how hurt and broken...
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kilcher:

Been thinking of you. Hope you're holding up okay. *hugz*

manwi:

hello l0o0o0o0vee

Monday Feb 09, 2009

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today was one of the hardest days of my life. I danced all day, and everything came out. I cried, i broke down, and i left my heart out on that floor... I came home around 430 and at a quarter to 5 my mom got a call from my uncle Kevin. She hung up with him and i said "im going with you". I...
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amyisme:

I send a hug.

kilcher:

I am so sorry for your loss. My uncle did the same thing about 10 years ago and the biggest pain was Why? I'll never get over that question but it truly did make me take a completely different view on life and how unimportant the trials we endure can be when one sudden act can cause so much pain and so many questions. It sounds like you are moving in that direction. It's good you have the love of your family around. It will be hard for a long time and it'll creep up on you in the strangest of times but keep him in your heart and remember him with love. Try and stay strong and for what it's worth, I'm sending you and your family many positive thoughts. *hugz*

Sunday Feb 08, 2009

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so, this morning, i was getting ready to go out to lunch with a friend, when i hear my sister say "what?!" my mom was on the phone and points to me and mouths "tell her"...my uncle Paul killed himself last night....

apparently, my aunt was downstairs doing the laundry, when she heard a loud noise, she told her son brian, my cousin, to...
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weston:

I'm very sorry to hear about that. My thoughts go out to you and your family!

wander:

I helped a friends family through a suicide a year ago.[he jumped off a bridge into the raritan bay in NJ]. The hard part with losing a love one that way was that family members may blame themselves. The great support they got from family and friends helped them relise that life is precious and sometime people make horrible mistakes when times get tough. What to say and do? Just get in touch and tell them you care and youll be there for them. Just knowing youve tried to help will help you with the shock of the situation as well.