jeremyh

I convinced Milwaukee is trying to kick me out...

I found out today that one of my closest friends here is moving back to Massachutess, is going to transfer and is going to go to school there.

I found out yesterday, that two of my closest friends just broke up... and on top of that one of them is joining the service to help repair some of his criminal record.

Honestly, I have no one here for me anymore. Over three the three years I've lived here I built a pretty large and solid network of friends and ever year since then I loose a couple until walah... no friends.

Year 1: Chuck, Nate, and Grant...
Year 2: Casey, Danielle,Bill, Ben...
Year 3: Angela, Justin H, Crystal, Justin, Angie, Jeremy, Sarah, Annie, Chris, Liz, Mike, Kelly, Pratik, Kulwinder, Harpreet, Hawk, Gugon, Chiti, Steve...

Chuck graduated, Nate and Grant dropped out.

Casey broke up with Danielle and she disappeared. Casey tranferred back to Green Bay to go to school there. Bill - my mentor - moved and accepted a job in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Ben disappeared after the household of Casey, Justin H, and him disinigrated.

I stopped seeing Angela, it was too hard. Justin H and Crystal are getting married and moving to St. Louis. Justin had to move back to Appleton after he failed out of school. Justin and Angie were together: I never saw her again after that. After Justin left there was a falling out between Chris and Jeremy: Jeremy moved out and I never saw him again. Sarah is Jeremy's girlfriend. When Chris started seeing Liz, Liz and Annie had a falling out and I never saw her again. Now Chris is moving back to Massachutess and Liz is going with him. Mike and Kelly broke up and Mike is joining the service. Kelly started dating a 45 yr-old with a kid - and with her new pre-made family - has no time for me anymore. Pratik slit his wrist and tried to kill himself and his parents made him move back to Bombay, India. Kulwinder moved out and on with his cousin Gugon after he graduated and are off to Madison in the fall. Hawk had a nervous breakdown - because of his difficulties in Med-school - and his parents made him move back to Texas. Harpreet and Chiti moved out yesterday and are moving to Texas in the fall. Steve moved out two days ago after he ripped off and stole from Harpreet and I.

You know when I write it all out it seems even worse... I don't know what I'm going to do. I like my school here, but that's it. Everything else sucks. I don't have a place to live here, I don't have any friends here. And I'm at a point in my scholastic career that makes it - because of my workload - immpossible to meet and forge new relational bonds. I'm also at a point where transfering will be devasting to my scholastic resume'. I love Green Bay, I have tons of friends there... yet the school sucks and it would not only tack on a year to my studies but it invalidates my credibility as a serious writer and Lit critic. If I seriously want a publishing job that is something more than delivering newspapers UWGB is not the place for me to be. So what, what do I do? Fuck, I don't know. I don't want to lay down. However, If I can't make it here what the fuck is the difference. I don't know... I'm done complaining, I'm moving my shit back to Green Bay tomorrow.

I saw the Hulk last night with Mike. It was awesome. If you're a film fan see this movie. Ang Lee did stuff with camera angles, split screens, change overs, and transitions that has never been done before. Not to mention the masterpiece that was the Hulk... the best example of CGI to date. I would say more, but I don't want to give anything away.

Then we went to Tumbleweed, before we were going to go out. I got a burger. Then everything just came over me and couldn't finish it. I got sick to my stomach... I ended up just having him drop my ass off. I couldn't even enjoy my last real night here.

I have all my shit packed away and ready to go - as I said before - tomorrow back to Green Bay. I don't know how often I will be updating my shit here for the next two months as my parents dial up sucks donkey dick. I should have something on here at least once a week. After I'm done online today... I'm gonna go grab a sub from Jimmy John's for my last meal; for some reason it seems like I'm just moments away from my execution.