HELP AND ADVICE PLEASE?!?! kinda serious.
So Ive mentioned before my boyfriend had a lover for a short time like 2 years ago right? maybe 3 years ago.
Well we had a fight, me and the girl, and we are friends now. We see eachother quite a lot and text a lot and get along. She told me she was over him and when I expressed to her I was worried she wasnt she laughed and shook her head. We talk about Jamie fine, we talk about him quite a bit, and she seems fine because she talks about him too not just listens to me.
Okay so the dilemma. We were texting last night and I mentioned our plans to move to Brighton, and she knows from him that we thought of moving to Canada in a few years, she replied "i didnt know you were planning to move south" so I explained our plan and then she never text back. But continued texting Jamie.
So I looked at her LiveJournal today and this is what it said:
"Sometimes no matter how much you want to forget a situation or you want to be okay with something, sometimes you just can't. It's buried, but it's still there. I hate it. I wish i could pretend it's not there, but it is. I've dealt with my demons. I will it to disintegrate, but it wont. The question is what to do next.
I hate being here. I hate constant reminders being shoved into the present, those little effin triggers, they're like fucking time bombs. It's hard to ignore something when people are practically shoving dirt in your face with a big grin.
I want to leave. If i'm further away i'm less involved in things i don't want or need to hear. And maybe then the past will settle.
I'm really giving in to stuff.
I'm so sick of pain.
It's fucking unbearable."
I dont know if shes talking about me but I have thought about her other situations and such, and to me, none of the things shes talked about applies here. It seems pretty obvious shes talking about me and the plan to move.
I feel bad for her in a way and a little mad that she wasnt honest with me.
WHat shall I do???
I was planning to maybe text her and say that I want her to know she can be honest with me and if Ive talked too much about Jamie, if I'm bringing up some old feelings, then let me know.
Help?!?!
Jamie wont think its about me. He never does. Like with his old friend Lucy, I would tell him when she was trying to patronise me and make me jealous and just be mean, but he didnt buy it, he said he like kept it in mind, but he would still like defend her. until it came out she was psycho when she blatently tried to tear us apart.
So Ive mentioned before my boyfriend had a lover for a short time like 2 years ago right? maybe 3 years ago.
Well we had a fight, me and the girl, and we are friends now. We see eachother quite a lot and text a lot and get along. She told me she was over him and when I expressed to her I was worried she wasnt she laughed and shook her head. We talk about Jamie fine, we talk about him quite a bit, and she seems fine because she talks about him too not just listens to me.
Okay so the dilemma. We were texting last night and I mentioned our plans to move to Brighton, and she knows from him that we thought of moving to Canada in a few years, she replied "i didnt know you were planning to move south" so I explained our plan and then she never text back. But continued texting Jamie.
So I looked at her LiveJournal today and this is what it said:
"Sometimes no matter how much you want to forget a situation or you want to be okay with something, sometimes you just can't. It's buried, but it's still there. I hate it. I wish i could pretend it's not there, but it is. I've dealt with my demons. I will it to disintegrate, but it wont. The question is what to do next.
I hate being here. I hate constant reminders being shoved into the present, those little effin triggers, they're like fucking time bombs. It's hard to ignore something when people are practically shoving dirt in your face with a big grin.
I want to leave. If i'm further away i'm less involved in things i don't want or need to hear. And maybe then the past will settle.
I'm really giving in to stuff.
I'm so sick of pain.
It's fucking unbearable."
I dont know if shes talking about me but I have thought about her other situations and such, and to me, none of the things shes talked about applies here. It seems pretty obvious shes talking about me and the plan to move.
I feel bad for her in a way and a little mad that she wasnt honest with me.
WHat shall I do???
I was planning to maybe text her and say that I want her to know she can be honest with me and if Ive talked too much about Jamie, if I'm bringing up some old feelings, then let me know.
Help?!?!
Jamie wont think its about me. He never does. Like with his old friend Lucy, I would tell him when she was trying to patronise me and make me jealous and just be mean, but he didnt buy it, he said he like kept it in mind, but he would still like defend her. until it came out she was psycho when she blatently tried to tear us apart.
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missknox:
i get you .. and it sucks your man doesn't see whats in front of him, but honestly you gave her the chance to be honest .. you did your part and unless she has an action on it i think i'd just wait, unless she fucks that up .. its your man and more important if she was that disrespectful to you .. you might oughta put her in her place is all
snekr:
SOunds like your dude needs to kick rocks. He should defend you regardless if you're right or wrong. I say you peace them both out because anytime homeboy comes home "late" or wants to spend the weekend with "the boys", there is always gonna be that suspicion that he's seeing her. Better to find someone who will cherish you, than to be stuck with someone who is only going to disappoint you...