jelly2

it is officially one week until i disappear from sg for a long long time. until then i have made a new vow for myself. after 9 years of being vegetarian. 4 years of being a vegan. i am becoming a carnivore. i devoured a pound of chicken the other day and i feel great. it goes against everything that i believed. the fact that it was something that i was so against made it very liberating. i did not feel guilty. as matter of fact i have been feeling guilty for eating vegetables. everything you eat was once alive. remember that. you may think that i am crazy. but the vegetables have their own consciousness. alot of you know that. it is a different kingdom as science says. but life all the same. i thanked the meat for nourishing me. and the next day i was more powerful on my bicycle. i don't know but i feel very liberated. i have not had red meat in 13 years, but i am considering it. i am not sad. i do not feel that i have sold out. i am just listening to my body. i would eat and eat all that i could, but never feel full. known vitamin deficiencies were arising. i have blood tests done twice a year and fear of nerve damage was becoming more real. none of this makes any sense. but i love my adrenal glands. i love coffee. meat eating has started. i do not think it is going to stop. please feel free to bash me if you like.