jcrabapple

it's time to let go of my fears, let go of my worries, and stop thinking about what might happen tomorrow or next week. all i can do is try to make today as great as it can be.

it's time to find confidence in myself. you can't make someone else feel confident if you don't feel confident yourself. that kind of applies to myself...
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i added two new pics. just wanted to see what you girls think. i've been thinking about contributing to the Suicide Boys group. Lemme know what you think.

i want to update but i don't really know what to say. i think i'm still improving. i still have bad moods and bad days. i still have doubts, mostly in my ability to be what she needs. hopefully the problem will be fixed soon. i've been trying really hard not to worry about the future and what may or may not happen. but it's...
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kara is much better. almost back to normal. that makes me very happy. i hate to see her so depressed and in pain. also, we can now get back to working on things.

i have so many ups and downs it's hard to deal with. because of kara being sick the past week we haven't been able to work on what needs fixed. so i'm...
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things are really weird right now. in addition to the recent relationship and emotional problems, now kara is having health problems. i am very worried about her even tho it's something that can probably be easily fixed. i feel bad that i can't do anything.

also, i have to hold in my problems because it wouldn't be right of me to keep looking to her...
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she gave me a wonderful little card with a great message in it. that really made me feel a lot better. i've been waiting for something like that. i just hope it keeps happening. i know she loves me, i don't doubt that. but i want to feel like she really wants me. i NEED to feel like she wants me. feeling unwanted and feeling...
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Today was a pretty great day. Today made me feel like everything is going to be ok, in time.

Help me make a little bit of money so I can move out with my girl.

things are very confusing right now. there are things i want to believe, things that i know i SHOULD believe. but those things are somewhat hard to believe right now. but i have to move past it. WE have to move past it. i know she loves me. and i love her more than life itself. i know she wants to be with me and...
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things have been a little better. but i don't think the main problem is going to be fixed. i can't be what she wants. i just have to live with that. i love her so much.