jayhel

This is day two of stop smoking weed. And it's not that bad, except for the fact that I'd love to be stoned right now. I can't so I won't. Last night was hell though. I couldn't for the love of me fall asleep. I had so much energy and nothing to do, I was quite nauseous as well, but I think that was due to drinking to much coffee and dancing around my room like an idiot (but it was fun). My mind can't find its turn-off button without weed it seems.

This morning was my half an hour of corporate interaction. Sat in a meeting all morning, listening to fat cats talking bullshit. You should see this shit. If you knew me you would have known that I'm not the neatest looking person in the world, but it's my look and I like it (I'm just modifying it a bit). Every Wednesday morning I put on a suit and tie, shave, and blow-dry my hair so that it doesn't hang in my eyes the whole time. I feel like such a dork. I pretend to be so corporate with my note book and laptop. Faking it, feeling like I'm in someone else's skin.

"Who's to know if your soul will fade away, the one you sold to fool the world."

Anyway got back around lunch time, took of my monkey suit, got into my normal dribs and drabs and did some work. Then I got a call from the Tattoo shop, my artist needs to go to the coast for some reason and we need to reschedule my appointment to next Friday. It sucks cause now I got to wait an extra week. Bastards!

Tomorrow I see my fianc, jipee! Long distance relationships suck, let me tell you this. We have been at it for 3 years now. But I love her so much I'll do it for another 5 if I have to. But luckily she'll be finished with her PhD somewhere during this year, then she'll move here and we can live happily ever after. Oh fuck, her car broke down today, so maybe I'm getting my hopes up for nothing, then I'll have to go pick her up and come back. We have so much to do this weekend. But my main goal is to love her as much as I can, so I can go another week