I see hope.
Josh and I went to a couples workshop. He was resistant at first (okay, so I tricked him into it) but I think he dug it. It was basically group therapy, with 7 couples. We all did exercices and problem solving, focusing on strengthening comunication and intamacy. During one exercise I cried when I related to Josh how I felt neglected and unloved. I realized I had never really spoke to him about it so honestly. I think he understood. I can see we have much work to do, and I know that the work is never truely done, but this workshop at least let me know Josh is willing, and I think that is half the battle.
So, to start off our new outlook on marraige, Josh suprised me. I went to the local Beltane celebration alone, with Liv, as josh was supposed to be working. I was pretty bummed about it....I really wanted him to come. So, when I arrived, there he was! It was great to see him outside of the context of our every day drugery (ya'know away from the mother in law and laundry and bills). Liv danced aroung the May Pole and chased around other kids (in her very first fairy princess skirt). I layed in the grass and Knit while josh worked the BBQ. Later, Olivia feel asleep in the grass while we watched Caberet and a band by the fire. There was wine and laughter and good freinds. I had a great time.
I need more of this..... I deserve it.
-Amber
Josh and I went to a couples workshop. He was resistant at first (okay, so I tricked him into it) but I think he dug it. It was basically group therapy, with 7 couples. We all did exercices and problem solving, focusing on strengthening comunication and intamacy. During one exercise I cried when I related to Josh how I felt neglected and unloved. I realized I had never really spoke to him about it so honestly. I think he understood. I can see we have much work to do, and I know that the work is never truely done, but this workshop at least let me know Josh is willing, and I think that is half the battle.
So, to start off our new outlook on marraige, Josh suprised me. I went to the local Beltane celebration alone, with Liv, as josh was supposed to be working. I was pretty bummed about it....I really wanted him to come. So, when I arrived, there he was! It was great to see him outside of the context of our every day drugery (ya'know away from the mother in law and laundry and bills). Liv danced aroung the May Pole and chased around other kids (in her very first fairy princess skirt). I layed in the grass and Knit while josh worked the BBQ. Later, Olivia feel asleep in the grass while we watched Caberet and a band by the fire. There was wine and laughter and good freinds. I had a great time.
I need more of this..... I deserve it.
-Amber
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Yes, you do need to get out together more. There is usually a lot of tension in a home because it is so emotionally charged. Take any opportunity to get away together and do something fun. Take a day trip hiking or a romantic weekend getaway. It helps!
Uhm, I don't know what this week's schedule looks like, but Friday I get a nice paycheck, so we should do something on the weekend. We should take the girls someplace nice. I'm anxious, though! Hehe