Monday Jul 11, 2005

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Dear Suicide Girls,

This will be my last Blog entry. I found out a suspicain I had was true today. This journal is no longer sacred. My private thoughts are being read by people who dont like me. People who wish to hurt me. But, first, I need to clear the air. Here goes.

Josh- I love you. I always will. I am not in...
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indecisive:

frown

squidbizkit:

Jamber. I am having a problem with your partners erectile dysfunction too. Your partner is not me.

Saturday Jul 09, 2005

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-Waking up next to him-

(Rock on- gold dust woman
Take your silver spoon
And dig your grave
Heartless challenge
Pick your path and I'll pray)


He's all over my mouth and running over my breasts. This affair is warming up my soul.


(Wake up in the morning
See your sunrise- loves- to go down
Lousy lovers- pick their prey
But they never...
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kail:

Wow. That's hot! Is that real or fantasy?

indecisive:

Hey pretty.
I've got most of those clothes packed up for you to go through. I have these shirts that are finally too small for Sidra, and I really want to pass them onto little Liv.

AND

Hell, I just wanna hear from you. Glad to see you're doing well. Get a hold of me sometime.
smile

Thursday Jul 07, 2005

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Hello my dears.

House sitting for freinds and getting some computer time.

Hum. Update. Yes. Fuck, I dont even know what to say.

I am well. I have been having some pretty steep emotional rides latley, as I try to figure out how to live on 300$ a month, support myself and my child, and how to continue on with my life. It is hard...
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squidbizkit:

dontbeafraid tocall if you need anythign.

kail:

Hang in there sweet one. Good things are on the way for you. smile

Monday Jun 20, 2005

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Been on an emotional ride lately.

Tired, irritable.

Cant wait for this divorce to final. Working on getting the seperation done...what a pain in the ass.

Olive is being such a sweet lady. I love my baby so much. She was the best thing that came out of all this. She is what keeps me strong, keeps me going.

I am missing my man...
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squidbizkit:

hi

Tuesday Jun 14, 2005

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She wants to buy the look of my abuse
They want to use my blood
To color their perfume

Get out of me
I know
Go, go, go

Just like a starfish
My legs will still grow back
I'll just be ten times stronger
Each time that you attack me
indecisive:

Heeeey, I called you and left a message, but forgot to leave you my number in the msg... However, I *think* I emailed it to you.

squidbizkit:

miss you

Thursday Jun 02, 2005

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make.
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aurora_b_alice:

YOU ARE SO _AWESOME_!

The world needs to breed more strong, badass chicks like you.

I'm glad to know there's girls out there like you who can tackle anything that comes there way.

indecisive:

I'm glad you're doing so well. You guys should all come down for Sidra's b-day party at the end of this month. June 26th... It's a Sunday, and it shall be around... 1ish? Maybe 2ish? When you would want to arrive-ish?

Wednesday May 25, 2005

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me.
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kail:

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean
I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down

Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I'd be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad

Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

"Simple Kind Of Life" - No Doubt

chimeraleon:

Any body going to Rush's Friday Night June 3rd for:
The Accused
Drip Dry
The Assasinators
Woodrot
The Gulags
7 Pm, 8 Bucks

. . . Or EndFesT Saurday June 4th
http://1077theend.com/listingsEntry.asp?ID=319889&PT=specialtyshowsgray

Thursday May 19, 2005

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want.
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indecisive:

I hope things start to let up soon.
Olivia isn't being abandoned at all! tongue You know that... Hehe.
You need to have some time to yourself, and that's completely understandable. That's where my offer still stands. If you could trust me, I'd take her offa your hands for a day, and her and Sidra could play for a while, and then I'll return her safely at home with mommy dearest. I'm not working anymore, and I don't think I start my new job for another week or two... So yeah.

kail:

Hi babe! Hang in there. I know things are rough. Give yourself some time to process through everything. I'm sure you know you'll go through the stages of Denial, Anger, Depression, Bargaining, and Acceptance. And typically, you move back and forth through several in the same day.

You are a good mother, so alleviate those fears. You are moving toward a better life for yourself. I admire you for taking action and moving forward. I wish I had done that sooner.

I love you! Stay positive and do the right thing! love love love kiss kiss kiss

Tuesday May 17, 2005

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to.
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squidbizkit:

you will be fine. kiss

call me if you need a friend.

tartpop:

((((HUGS))))

honey i'm so sorry. i wish i knew what to say...... blackeyed