i just don't know sometimes. i just don't know. SO much change. it's a little hard to take it all in at once. and a little scary.
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i need money. 
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abracapocus:
you and me both, sister.
funktion:
i second that emotion!!~!
i need love too, and sex, and some chocolate, and more beer..
would you mind... since you're up..
so how ya been. all over and around and upside down
gotta love life huh!
I caught a few of the pics you had posted here and there and you look great!! its awesome to see you smiling and happy.
hows the job going?
i need love too, and sex, and some chocolate, and more beer..
would you mind... since you're up..
so how ya been. all over and around and upside down
gotta love life huh!
I caught a few of the pics you had posted here and there and you look great!! its awesome to see you smiling and happy.
hows the job going?
i get like that sometimes. thanks for caring for those of you who care. 
i care for you too....and sorry that i am not keeping up on all of your journals. i am sick right now. i am also working more and ya know? i am just full of excuses.. 
one of the kids at the school jabbed another kid with a plastic dinosaur tail...
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i care for you too....and sorry that i am not keeping up on all of your journals. i am sick right now. i am also working more and ya know? i am just full of excuses..
one of the kids at the school jabbed another kid with a plastic dinosaur tail...
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friedbanana105:
i hope you feel better tomorrow on every level that's low.
anger_frog:
We're always here when you need it.
I just burst into tears because I realized I am completely alone. You know...I have been doing fine for a long time...keepin busy and stuff...but I don't know if I can handle this...and it's not all the relationship ending...it's having nobody who cares...nobody to talk to. I work and I take care of myself...I work so fucking hard to make my life better...but why? I...
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phatchief666:
hey, I'm going through something pretty similar at the moment. it's realising that you're never completely alone, no matter how much it feels like it. There's a whole bunch of people there for you. Hey if I lived over the pond we could go rock out together, and if you ever find yourself in the UK come look me up. Take care sweets and smile....
some_crazeh_dood:
I know how you feel right about now
I just spilled ajax and I said "uh oh!" in a way that i do if a kid spills milk at the place i work...what has happened to me? what has happened to my "FUCK" or "DAMN IT" or "SHIT"....instead i freakin am so close to baby talk it's sick.... 
i laughed at myself when i heard myself do it...because i was the only person...
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friedbanana:
FUCK!!
Felt better that I said it for you
Felt better that I said it for you
speed_metal:
"Fuckin' UH-ohhh" ... consider it "coined"
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deathhippie:
Lauren I think you are awesome. Keep working the uphill trudge. Don't slip and fall like myself. A long time and a lot of pain, but I know you can get through it.
emjmd:
Hey sweet heart. Love the pics, glad to see ya smile! I think you are doing great, don't get discouraged.
You can rant any time you want.
Love ya. *hugs*
I think you are doing great, don't get discouraged.
You can rant any time you want.
Love ya.
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updating=effort
meh
dammit
so tired
i want to talk to you...but i am tired....i have been running around like crazy...next week i have a 40 hour work week and have to finish cleaning the old apt to get my deposit back....and this weekend i am trying to stay social as well....but i have to drive far to do it...now...
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updating=effort
meh
dammit
so tired
i want to talk to you...but i am tired....i have been running around like crazy...next week i have a 40 hour work week and have to finish cleaning the old apt to get my deposit back....and this weekend i am trying to stay social as well....but i have to drive far to do it...now...
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1aura1:
good luck!
deathhippie:
I hate to say it, but you look sooooo fucking stoned in the first pic. I know you are just tired though. Rest up, and glad to hear you don't give up. You will get there because your... Grrrreeeat!
I so love tony the tiger.
Maybe I will dress up like him one day and walk down the street cheering people up.
I so love tony the tiger.
Maybe I will dress up like him one day and walk down the street cheering people up.
HEY FUCKERS I'm back. I moved in weds....My new apartment is sooo cute...I still have a lot of crap to do with my old apartment to clean it up and shit... and also I have to haul out my patio shit(i have no patio here 
but it's much nicer here overall)...(i am far from friends though-)anyways...i love it...fullsized fridge...nice bath and 10 minutes from work...12...
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I'm back. I moved in weds....My new apartment is sooo cute...I still have a lot of crap to do with my old apartment to clean it up and shit... and also I have to haul out my patio shit(i have no patio here but it's much nicer here overall)...(i am far from friends though-)anyways...i love it...fullsized fridge...nice bath and 10 minutes from work...12... Read More
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iyce:
Hey girlie
That's good your job is going great. When it's like that, it's more easier to go everyday
That's good your job is going great. When it's like that, it's more easier to go everyday
1aura1:
have fun!
I have dial-up...and my phone gets turned off tonight (midnight i think) so I can turn on a new one at my new place...not sure when I will have time to move my computer over to my new place...so leave me some nice messages...mmmkay? hopefully I will be back really soon. MOVING IS HECTIC AS ALL HELL. I am so tired. I want to curl...
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ejh:
i fucking hate moving. and i hate the fact we didn't get to hang when i was down that way. we need to fix that! 
mschrista:
come back soon miss you
come back soon miss you OK. I feel like going fucking haywire. 
I AM SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE BREAKING SOMETHING. I just spent sooooo long writing....and then it got fucked up....dammit....
i really came to some good conclusions about what has happened to me in my past too. fuck the world. seriously. i don't have time for this bullshit. i have to go to work.
I AM SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE BREAKING SOMETHING. I just spent sooooo long writing....and then it got fucked up....dammit....
i really came to some good conclusions about what has happened to me in my past too. fuck the world. seriously. i don't have time for this bullshit. i have to go to work.
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deathhippie:
I think she is becoming a pirate.. 
At least I hope she is.
Hope you have a better day at work though.
At least I hope she is.
Hope you have a better day at work though.
1aura1:
smash a plate it'll make you feel better.
Everything will be ok.
Love ya.