irenzero

I ate the emergency candy bar after getting a buzz off of ice tea and vodka tonight... heartbreak..... not really heartbreak, but news that the last woman that I asked out and was rejected by... I should say that I rejected myself for. she was pointedly ignoring me, and I gave her back her phone number and the directions to her place... Now has a new boyfriend.

It's not that I am jealous, it's that it reminds me how disconnected I am from my peers and that I hope that someday I will meet someone to spend my life with, but I know my past history pretty much indicates that I won't find that person.........

what ever...... I don't even know why I am typing this into the void that is my SG account............ never mind, go back and read my last entry it's a lot better....