inkaholik

i have decided....

im going to be giving up drinking all together.

Reasons:
1) its fucking up my relationship with jen
2) its caused me to put on a few extra pounds
3) itll save me money
4) i would over do it and thatd cause me to call in ALOT and cant being doing that right now with my new job.

i mean ill have parties and shit but dont expect me to provide beer or see me with a drink in my hand.
so from now on parties are gonna be strictly byob!

so my new job is the fuckin shit. its so fuckin easy. long story short i do nothing for 4 out of 8 hours haha for almost 18 bucks an hour.

i need to think about jen and my future. we need to prepare.
plus i would like to propose to her soon. and eventually start our family once we are both financially stable.

for the most part lifes been pretty blah. but i guess thats what happens when life becomes so routine which is why i like going with my buddies to their shows and helping. its a nice break from reality.

my mom and i are pretty strapped for cash like the rest of America.

i just things would for once turn out the way we want them.
but of course this is real life and not a fuckin movie so all these fuckers making millions of dollars and sitting high up on that high horse can just sit back and watch the rest of the world struggle.
if i had it my way and became wealthy my family would be the first people i take care of.

of course id be there for friends but family is most important i hate seeing my mom struggle and it blows when i cant do shit about it.

makes me miss my dad and shit bc hed kno exactly what to do.

but fuck im tryin my best but shit thats never good enough.

anywho figured id update since i havent in a while. so thats it for now.

peace out bitches