imasailorgirl

I am really excited.
A few days ago Alan and I where talking about the future and what we want to do in our long term future. During that conversation several things came together for me.

1.) I really do like sailing and boats. Ok. For some of you this may be a "duh", I live on a boat, etc... but for me, I'm still getting used to the idea. Boats where always Alan's thing. The reason I wanted to live on a boat was to travel... aka to be in exotic beautiful places. I really realized that I love traveling on boats. I like the journey just as much if not more then the new place.

2.) I want to learn to sail tall ships. Once again, that was Alan's thing. With his more then a year on Schooner Western Union, under his belt, he's wanting to get his capt license. We We were talking about wanting to own and run a tall ship. To do that I need to know what the hell I'm doing too. If we "own" a tall ship, and take on crew, (paid and sail trainees), I need to have a say in what happens on my boat/home. To do that, I need to have the authority to give commands, otherwise, (due to nautical tradition among other reasons), I'm just a passenger. Now, to get that I need to start as a deck hand and work my way up... To be able to have a tall ship in, say, 20 years, I need to let myself be a begginer "now" so as to have the authority and knowledge to make that dream a reality. So, I'm thinking about either volenteering around here, or waiting till we head south and getting a job on a boat.

3.) The big one for me, (as if those aren't big enough, is the idea of becoming a "life coach". I've heard of the job for many years, but I never directly thought of myself in the position. But everytime I did a semenair, I wanted to become a facilitor. I wanted to lead otherd through revelations and breakthroughs. But the other day as we were talking about the future, I saw that the reason I never took the steps to becoming a facilitator is because with the 2 different "brands" of semimar, I found things I didn't like or agree with, I would have to change a core belief to do it, and therefore I never followed that path. But with life coaching, I can be myself and guide other people in a way that suits the two, (my and the client) of us. If the client and I clash on any core beliefs, I'll not accept the client and recommend them to someone else.

So, I have started the first steps. I have started looking at the boats in this area. I am planning on getting in touch with them this week and seeing if I can work out some of that.And the big one, (for me), I have signed up for a 2 class telephone introduction for coaching. I do my first 1 hour call on monday, (the 27th) and the next the following Monday. From there I will figure out what I can do about the next step, (paying for the full coach training or the self study course).

Now, I am looking at what I want to get done over the next 28 weeks, (we're leaving Philly October 9th). I have a long list and I want to keep taking steps in the right direction. I have to keep reminding myself to congratulate myself for the past victories and notice, but not worry about, past failings... then move forward. If I keep finding the next baby step forward that is the direction I will go.

I'm really excited about the possibilities for my future. I used to dread the future... after all how could it compare to all the amazing things of youth. I'm realizing that all the things I thought was what my life was about was just my extended adolesence. I am how clearer about who I am and what I want. I like myself much better at 28 then I did when I was 20.

So, I'm off to go take more baby steps...