Boobs. There. Do I have your attention yet?
(you can see how disorganized my room is in that last picture. I'm the least organized virgo I know, which leads me to believe that astrology is crap.)
I wish I had the selfie skils that @ameline does. That girl is amazing I tell you! I can't wait to hang out with her next month when I am up north.
The past few days have been full of malaise, but I am trying to claw my way out of it. I began horseback riding again, which is awesome. I found this beautiful hunters/dressage farm that needs some of their off track thoroughbreds to be exercised so I jumped at the chance to start riding again for free. The only downside is that it's an hour away, but the plus side to that downside is that it's a rather lovely drive through the countryside.
For those of you who have never been to the south there really is some gorgeous countryside here with views that really does endear the place to your heart. And there is always a good chance that you'll pass by some elegant relic from the past in the form of a large old plantation house. Of course, most of them have fallen into various states of disrepair, which for me makes them all the more interesting and beautiful. Some of them are still lived in and some are not. When your turning around a corner they seem to rise up from the ground like these grand guardians, protecting a way of life that's thankfully been dead and buried for well over a century now. They're really quite fascinating and lovely to see.
You know what I want? More tattoos. You know what doesn't fit into the budget of someone who works in animal rescue? More tattoos. I see so many beautiful tattoos here and I become rather envious! I wish I had the money to get more. Oh well. C'est la vie. Perhaps my situation will change and I'll be able to afford another one soon. Who knows, maybe one of my awesome friends will take me to get one for my birthday in September...
I feel bad wanting things, even things like tattoos. I think I have ingrained it into me to not be materialistic so when I express desire for a thing or something that's not necessary I feel guilty. I guess I feel that there are people in this world that don't have food to eat and I am sitting here wanting yet another thing I don't need. Has anyone else ever felt this way? Please say yes. I don't want to feel as if I am the only one.
Anyway, hopefully I'll wake up tomorrow and be free of the doldrums that I have been experiencing as of late. Everyone cross your fingers for me! Depression sucks.
