huronian

So I was juggling clubs in the living room. My parents asked if I had taken my medication. I said I was going to. They asked if I was manic. I said no. Wonder if I should tell them I didn't take my meds yesterday and didn't go to sleep and was kind of thinking about doing the same today. I mean, what exacty, happens when bipolar people do such stuff? Sure I've had a psychosis but it was under long-going social and mental pressure coupled with low EQ, low insight into myself and a specifik weakness in my character (social phobia/paranoia/bad self esteem) getting twisted in some horrible knot. Am I bound to get low on those characteristics and get lost again just if I happen to lose some days sleep? My life is so boring right now so I almost don't see a reason not to loose myself anyway... Wish I had some IRL people with the disease and more experience to tell my why exactly I shouldn't just have fun and wreck my psyche. I mean, wierd as that my sound to sane people, it feels like a good idea right now.

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