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Can't belive how miserable I was when I first came here. Needing self hypnosis to feel pain if you burn yourself on the lighter? Check. Sleeping four hours a day two hours at a time while longing for sleep 24/7? Check. Feeling as if someone stabbed you in the stomach when you stone face someone and get a look as vulnerable as you felt in...
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zombiebacon:
Buck up Buttercup. You're young. It'll get better. I promise
kay:
Hang in there love.
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I guess taking a break from life is better than ending it. Feels like I'm finally starting to come back. Nice. smile
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1000 MTG cards to sort after block, edition, color, type, CMC and name. Asperger mode activated...
kora:
uau..
i have no idea what is that o.o
huronian:
It's a trading card game I used to play in my teens. Hoped I'd have some cards worth selling or using if I decided to pick it up again but it seems I was unlucky. frown
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So apparently I might be epileptic. Thanks brain, keep malfunctioning. I didn't think it could be that bad seeing starfalls in bookshelves. I just thought I was psychotic.
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Feeling better but life is scary. I don't want to doubt myself like this. This sucks.
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So I'm feeling better now. Alot better. And I hope my parents will too in a while. Right now I'm drinking and taking benzo though. I couldn't handle the anxiety over the last year. I'm just so disappointed with the psychiatry here in Sweden. But it's not like everyone doesn't already know it sucks. There have been accounts of mentally ill killing random people in...
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So my mother's gotten old this year. She told my father that. I interpreted his meaning as it being my fault. Back then I still cared but it couldn't really hit me. Other people couldn't make me feel worse than I already did. Now as I'm starting to feel better though, all of my behaviour comes crashing down.

I used to be quite the filanthropist....
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huronian:
Maybe finding it in yourself to care enough but not go down like this is the path to walk. At least, I don't think before or after I had my breakdown is the path to walk.
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I feel so damn... blargh. I've been trying to find myself for I don't know how long. What if I finally have? Or am close to at least? That would be nice. I just wish I would have sooner.
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