howlinthurston

My brother and I had a good ride on the FM24 route. 45 minutes but that include a wrong turn into the cyclocross murder pi t beneath the CNN Center.

change everything you don't like about your life

I'm in a snacky place.
Bagel in the toaster.

I want to be fixed!

ok i feel alot better.
I'd been updating my profile for adultfriendfinders.com and being kinder to myself. I find that I am not totally shutting down anymore. I still don't expect much out of it but you never know. Maybe next I will be able to function out in the real world and find myself a playmate.

I tried to ride in one of the...
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I don't do amything exotic. Every so often I get a little feedback that I am liked or what I am doing is exceptional. Not very often. I realluy am not exceptional.
everything that I wamt is ambiguous and unatainable. I am asked if I want to be happy. I don't know what that is.
what is my own satisfaction worth. I'm not satisfied. what...
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I think I had a breakthrough.
25 years removed from the situation
6 years of therapy
and a partner that is encouraging and challenging.
YAY!

On a different note I finally won a race at the track. (I race bicycles at the velodrome in East Point (south of Atlanta). Actually I won two races. The scratch race and the points race. I came in 5th...
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Steven Lynch last night
fight last night
more today
I spent most of the day numb
glad only 2 computers died - still one left and cash to rebuild the one for my brother

I'm not a complete fuck-up

heading out to the earl in a few minutes. meeting a coworker for a show and some cocktails.
well see how that goes