My supposed best friend, just gave up our friendship so she could fuck a guy. She called ME selfish, for getting upset, when this is the SECOND time she did this.
I have NO friends. My closest friend is 36, lives in Chicago, and we met online in Second Life. He is the only person I can say I've been friends with for years. I don't understand. I don't know what the fuck to do.
EVERYONE fucks me over like this. According to my friend I mentioned above (I explained the full story to him), she apparently has a personality disorder, which I can honestly see. She's had a rough time and I felt she validated herself with men and I think she does. But the point is, this is like the millionth person I've befriended and gotten close to with a problematic personality disorder. I don't know what to do. I never see it, but it always ends up causing some huge issue. But they're always people with tons of friends, why is it always me who only sees the problem or who has a blow up because of it? AND I NEVER DO ANYTHING!! Is it not reasonable for me to be upset that my friend is ditching me for a guy when I purposely return home for HER because last weekend she had an emotional blowout? IF IT ISN'T TELL ME!
I'M SO FRUSTRATED
I NEED REAL FRIENDS I CANT HANDLE THIS ANYMORE
I LEGITIMATELY HAD A DREAM ABOUT GETTING A HUG LAST NIGHT BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I GOT A REAL, COMFORTING, LOVING HUG (goodbye hugs from Mom don't count)
I FUCKING NEED REAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE OR IM GOING TO LOSE IT
