I am officially 100% single once more.
Zephyer and I had an arrangement, where we were "seeing eachother" but were not boyfriend and girlfriend.
That didn't work for me...
1: I want someone who is going to be devoted to me. I don't want to have to worry about what happens when Mike comes back from Baghdad. I don't want to worry about losing her ALL OVER AGAIN.
2: She is 2000 miles away at college, doing her own thing, discovering more about herself. It is selfish and foolish of me to try to tie her down. It's like tying a Saint Bernard to a tree with yarn. Doesn't work.
I love the girl to death, and I'd do anything for her...
this was the last thing my heart wanted...
but I know deep inside it was the right thing to do.
If life wants us together, it will happen later.
Right now we are both discovering new things about ourselves...and it's just not the right time.
Who would have thought I would be strong enough to do something like this?
I guess I underestimate myself.
-KOS
Zephyer and I had an arrangement, where we were "seeing eachother" but were not boyfriend and girlfriend.
That didn't work for me...
1: I want someone who is going to be devoted to me. I don't want to have to worry about what happens when Mike comes back from Baghdad. I don't want to worry about losing her ALL OVER AGAIN.
2: She is 2000 miles away at college, doing her own thing, discovering more about herself. It is selfish and foolish of me to try to tie her down. It's like tying a Saint Bernard to a tree with yarn. Doesn't work.
I love the girl to death, and I'd do anything for her...
this was the last thing my heart wanted...
but I know deep inside it was the right thing to do.
If life wants us together, it will happen later.
Right now we are both discovering new things about ourselves...and it's just not the right time.
Who would have thought I would be strong enough to do something like this?
I guess I underestimate myself.
-KOS
It sucks to be in that position though. =/