I've never really been much for blog writing but I'll give anything a shot.....
I have a few things that I'd like to get off my chest. Maybe it will make me feel better, maybe it won't. I don't really care. Maybe someone else will read this, but probably not.
I'm going back to school this year. I haven't been committed to continuing my education for some time now and come September 8th I'll be jumping into second and third year uni courses. Truth be told, I am scared to death that it will be too hard. I'm scared to death that I will put forth all this effort just to come up short in the end. I will be working 5 days a week and trying to make ends meet while also trying desperately to succeed at school. I have no financial aid to depend on, like so many other students here do and that alone puts so much extra stress on me. I have to manage paying tuition with not going homeless. I feel so frazzled about it right now that I am losing my words and just don't know how to describe myself. This is terribly out of character as I am usually very articulate. It worries me.
I miss my pets. I want a dog so badly but I know I can't have one. I mean, sure, I could get a dog but I know I would not be able to provide the best environment for him right now. My apartment is rather smallish, and I would never be around with school starting up and all. I could be selfish and get him anyways, it would make me feel great for a while but it wouldn't be long before I started hating myself for being an irresponsible pet owner. My better judgment has stepped in and told me it's not meant to be and that makes me a little sad. Perhaps I could find a dog to 'borrow'. Alright, who's got dogs that need to be played with?? haha.
Also, I heard that eating dinner is the cat's pajamas; maybe I will go do that now.
Hmm, oddly enough I feel a little better.
I have a few things that I'd like to get off my chest. Maybe it will make me feel better, maybe it won't. I don't really care. Maybe someone else will read this, but probably not.
I'm going back to school this year. I haven't been committed to continuing my education for some time now and come September 8th I'll be jumping into second and third year uni courses. Truth be told, I am scared to death that it will be too hard. I'm scared to death that I will put forth all this effort just to come up short in the end. I will be working 5 days a week and trying to make ends meet while also trying desperately to succeed at school. I have no financial aid to depend on, like so many other students here do and that alone puts so much extra stress on me. I have to manage paying tuition with not going homeless. I feel so frazzled about it right now that I am losing my words and just don't know how to describe myself. This is terribly out of character as I am usually very articulate. It worries me.
I miss my pets. I want a dog so badly but I know I can't have one. I mean, sure, I could get a dog but I know I would not be able to provide the best environment for him right now. My apartment is rather smallish, and I would never be around with school starting up and all. I could be selfish and get him anyways, it would make me feel great for a while but it wouldn't be long before I started hating myself for being an irresponsible pet owner. My better judgment has stepped in and told me it's not meant to be and that makes me a little sad. Perhaps I could find a dog to 'borrow'. Alright, who's got dogs that need to be played with?? haha.
Also, I heard that eating dinner is the cat's pajamas; maybe I will go do that now.
Hmm, oddly enough I feel a little better.
belena:
Hello honey ^^
