heathermaxine

aww god, my head hurts.

when i get one of these, i often go on the computer and type very fast and don't think about what i'm typing. because when i'm typing stream of conciousness it incorporates many different parts of my brain, both physically and mentally, and this prevents me from pausing and allowing my senses to overwhelm me and touching the tenderness of my head and feeling it throb and throb and rip through me.

at their worst, they are bad. real bad. i never complain about my ailments in real life, like to pretend i'm a Tough Kid, but...

i don't know where these headaches come from. i suppose i ought to get them checked out, go to the doctor or something, make sure there's nothing more to it... but i prefer just to let things go, let them fly, let them fall up into the air. i had this sore on my toe for four months before i went to a podiatrist, and it turns out it's a virus and i've severely damaged the skin tissue within my toe. last night i had a dream that i was peeling back the skin and underneath there was livid, pulsing yellowness. as if i am slowly being overcome by another living force within me. like cancer, boys and girls. what monstrosity.

don't stop. fuck.