the simple lack of their presence is more then most peoples' entire existance.
i want to love first and live incidentally.
unfortunately i have no one to love. or rather the one i love doesn't love me "like that". it seems strange that i long for something that has caused me such suffering. i suppose we always want what we can't have. and somehow don't appreciate it when we do.
unfortunately i have no one to love. or rather the one i love doesn't love me "like that". it seems strange that i long for something that has caused me such suffering. i suppose we always want what we can't have. and somehow don't appreciate it when we do.
misha9999999:
man, I read something in Print magazine last night... that
totally depressed me. I mean one of the most depressing
things I've ever read. I need to write it down and post in your
journal, because it parallels what you're saying so much...
or maybe it doesn't. do I even know what i'm saying?...
_____
and I don't think we want it... we're just afraid to go for the
real thing for some reason. Or maybe if we are to choose
between nothing and self-inflicted suffering, we choose
suffering. At least it's some sort of a feeling... close enough.
___
is that Matisse? of course it is, I like the hole in the heart...
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totally depressed me. I mean one of the most depressing
things I've ever read. I need to write it down and post in your
journal, because it parallels what you're saying so much...
or maybe it doesn't. do I even know what i'm saying?...
_____
and I don't think we want it... we're just afraid to go for the
real thing for some reason. Or maybe if we are to choose
between nothing and self-inflicted suffering, we choose
suffering. At least it's some sort of a feeling... close enough.
___
is that Matisse? of course it is, I like the hole in the heart...
[Edited on Mar 27, 2003]
mistressmissy:
i also love what i cant have. when i did have him i dont think i didnt appreciate...i couldnt believe it. why would this person want me? why me? don't they deserve to have someone better? what's so special about me? and it all seemed like this miraculous dream...until the dream ends and the nightmare of being without them begins.
tomorrow is my favorite day, because there's always tomorrow. atleast introspectively.
misha9999999:
tomorrow is always questionable. humans are not only mortal,
but mortal unexpectedly... I seem to be arguing with you
a lot lately... sorry.
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but mortal unexpectedly... I seem to be arguing with you
a lot lately... sorry.
[Edited on Mar 26, 2003]
i'm broken and defeated.
where's death when you need it?
where's death when you need it?
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mistressmissy:
it only comes when you don't want it. sad isnt it?
mistressmissy:
thanx for the well wishing. its not that i really want it but its a good job where you just drive around so that rocks and all...and you get benefits which i need. i just really dont want to work at mcdonalds again.
Love is a 50 cent whore, who just wants to be held
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misha9999999:
why do you like tatu? i have their cd and it's ok...
i'm still trying to understand why people are so fascinated
with them? at least le tigre carries a message...
i'm still trying to understand why people are so fascinated
with them? at least le tigre carries a message...
mistressmissy:
sweet. i just got out of paying a dollar fifty and i got some love. thanx heh
She doesn't seem to care
as long as we don't
breathe the same air
as long as we don't
breathe the same air
misha9999999:
I always want to comment but sometimes i'm thoughtless.
if there is no tomorrow, atleast i have tonight
jint:
I'm a few hours ahead of you guys in time, and I can tell that there is a tomorrow...
(Hope I haven't rouined your night then...)
(Hope I haven't rouined your night then...)
homonculus:
What are your philosophical interests?
sometimes love is a random act of brutality
misha9999999:
and sometimes it's a deliberate act of masochism.
sliverz:
And either way, it usually ends with at least one person hurt. But, that's how things work today, right? Love results, sooner or later, in pain?
it hurts when u kick me in the face
the things we lose we must leave behind
keep them in your heart but not on your mind
keep them in your heart but not on your mind
In life there are only accomplishments and missed opportunities.
misha9999999:
somewhere I read, sometimes opportunities knock on your door and often all they leave is a steaming pile of dog shit...
nala:
true true
there's a halo around my head
its spining me round and round
i don't know if im alive or dead
head in the clouds, feet on the ground
its spining me round and round
i don't know if im alive or dead
head in the clouds, feet on the ground
before...