halfjack

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sorry for another emo post. sometimes a whole lot of shit piles up at once, and i get overwhelmed for a second, and then i'm like hey, this is chaos. must be tuesday. i mean, if there's anything in life i can adjust to, it's a good ol' fashioned shit storm.

so anyway i don't know when/if i might get fired or when/if i'll be...
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things are starting to crumble here in dayton ohio. the home, the friends, the potential lady, the job. things are coming apart. i know this feeling. i am usually not apt to stopping it. but now, something's different. i smell fear. it's mine. i stink of it. when did i become so domesticated?

so i'm about 80 feet high, harnessed into a lift, at the top of an air force hangar, removing a 30 pound light, and thinking, amidst oh shit oh shit oh shit's, wow, my job is sometimes the shit. i've always had trouble with sit down at a desk kinda jobs, but now i doubt i'll ever be able to do one. i mean...
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I AM IN LOVE WITH MONTREAL

back in ohio. i was stepping off the bus and my friends here were calling me to join them at a bar. that's just awesome. i kinda wanted to sleep or shower, since i'd been on the road for 2 days straight, but hey. booze is booze, and booze i don't have to pay for is awesome-in-the-mouth.

the regina...
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tonight i finally saw v for vendetta. i assure you, you should all see it. alan moore's dream swallowed and shat out of hollywood, it should still do something for you.

i feel strange. i feel something that i thought long dead in me awake. i hope it doesn't go away again.

i doubt i'll sleep tonight, but hope i will. i can't wait to...
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so i already got in trouble at work. me and me new friend joel went out to a bar the other night and got really drunkened. i may have fixed him up (finally) with the girl he's had a crush on for like years. i may have caused a bit of drama that night with another girl that had a thing for him. ditto with...
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track 2

update after drinking alone all day:

just so yall know, i don't hate my new job, i mean, it beats being a barrista under the helm of satan, but it does get a bit lonely sometimes. i know some people out here, but they're all a friend of a friend. or a co-worker. it's very weird. i used to be so used to...
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ok. update. i got the mothahfuckin job sexy britcheses! it's midnight, and i start tomorrow. my new boss is actually really fucking cool, and has the best 1980's canadian mullet that i've seen in a long time. tomorrow morning i go to pittsburgh to do a quick clean up from my crew's last job, and then we head back and crash in cleveland where the...
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i'm in ohio right now. dayton to be exact. i just got gang-massaged by two gay men and it was absolutely scrumtrellescent. i drove out here with one of them (his name is sabre, also known as 6-9, because he's 6'9" and that the horny austian kept calling after him in DC) because he was supposed to have hooked me up with this job (last...
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ok so i need your help. yes you. i read this book two years ago and lost it on the road. i really really liked it and i've been trying to remember what it was called cuz i want to read it again. so i'll tell you what i can remember.

it starts with a girl stepping out in front of a moving car (on...
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blah. my roomate is leaving to take care of family stuff. which really sucks, cuz i have trouble making really really good friends like him. especially with dudes. at least he's gonna try and get me a job before he leaves.

more venting: wtf is up with the fact that gay men thinking that i'm the hottest shit since like, dance music? all my gay...
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