gundamzig

Have to move this weekend. Lousy German telecomm industry takes one week to activate a phone line and 2 weeks after to assign a DSL port. So, i will be very intermittant on my contacts during these times. (if anyone cared to contact me outside SG can do so. Not that anyone will ) .

i know it's over before it began, why did i...
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i started to fallfor someone, thenshe vanished.

She appeared again, but seemed to be distant. i know she is very stressed. It just seemed what was there had gone.

One more failure to add to a growing list

i give up, i have to decide, when the time comes, if i should/can renew my subscription here. Onlyone or two people ever reached out with an...
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How many believe love is the most important thin out there?

That you should do whatever you have to do to fulfill it?

How many believe we have a finite number of chances, and
after that, we are given no more?
i have know a few whom i could love, but would never look at me that way; or, disappear before i can hold onto...
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Why do i live when so many young men and women died? i see the faces coming back from Iraq and wonder what i did to deserve anything, including breathing.
Don't know if i will have a job, some people think we cost too much.
Thought i had met HER and had a future. Now she has disappeared and no longer responds. One more loss,...
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erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein

i dont know if i should continue on like this. Nothing i have done seems to help or open up any doors in my life. i am too passive to go out and make friends. i prefer they come to me so then i know they really are interested. only 2 incredible people took that step and i am greatful, maybe i will be back....
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For once i had an up night, went to a great show and meant a nice couple from Arizona. Didn't try and hook up, but didn't feel the pressure to do it.

Then someone had to bring up the ex-bitch. In an attempt to remind me how lucky i was she dumped me, someone told me they found out more about her. I didn't want...
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Nice to know that 2 people know i am alive. i try to take solace in the fact that they are both lovely woman at that. i'd hate to think i could drop of the face of the Earth or take a dirt nap and noone would notice or care, at least noone outside my family or people i've met.


PS.;gotta get dolled up for...
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Did anyone notice i was gone?





Didn't think so..........

New Me, ICK! pics if anyone cares to see me a little more dressed up.
My current job told me if I do not give 2 weeks notice and work them, i am ineligible for rehire. If the new job won't push start date back, what to do . More $$$ and having to come home probably and start over vs. the ability to stay...
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