Alright I gotta vent, and I need some advice. Bear with me, this is gonna be long winded. It's been kept inside too long...
I have been with the boy for over 2 years now, we just moved in together like a month and a half ago.... I know he takes care of business, a lot. He's very honest about it. And frankly, I do appreciate that. I take care of business often enough as well. I would say we have a very active, fun, good sex life. Better than any guy before and he can keep up with me, which is nice. So, before we actually started cohabitating, he mentioned how he looks at porn too much via internet(I was already aware of this)...and was hoping us moving in together would help it (not stop it...I'm not stupid.) Anyway...I was like, it's not that big of a deal, as long as it doesn't hurt our sex life. And he was like, Babe, I'm not gonna be one of those guys who's on the computer when I've got my naked girlfriend in the next room.
Well, he is that guy. I'm in bed, reading, around the house or whatever(and NAKED) and he's in his room jacking off to porn on the internet. I know he is, don't even have to check. And he does it like 2-3 times a day. Even after we have gotten naked. Now, I am not saying I am God's gift or anything, or even the best in bed, but I think I am better than his frigging hand and the naked chicks on the SCREEN! It's one thing if it's "that time", I'll give him that, but if I'm around, and he knows DAMN well, am ALWAYS ready, why does he do it? I am actually taking offense to this. Wouldn't any of you guys rather get it on with me than jack off? Or is it too time consuming to have sex with your girlfriend and it's easier to take care of business??? I like it all the time, and most of all before bed time- I sleep so well. I just don't get it. I am a very sexual being, I think I look pretty good, love sex and taking care of business-even in front of him...
Am I being too sensitive? Did I think guys take care of business less? Is porn that much better? I am SERIOUSLY thinking of talking to him about this and I admit, I am a bit scared that A) that he will LIE, B) I don't want to know the answer or C) feel like a pyscho bitch which I have always prided myself on NOT being. Most of my close friends are men.
I don't know... I am scared to talk about it to any of my friends(too personal) and I know that I am throwing my personal life on anyone that is reading this and probably doesn't give a fuck, but I would appreciate any feed back.
I will sign off with this...sorry to be a burden on any strangers here... But I need some feed back before I have the talk. Too scared the boy lived alone for too long and is a porn addict or something. I like porn too....
Help, I do not have many self esteem problems, but this is hitting hard core.
-K
I have been with the boy for over 2 years now, we just moved in together like a month and a half ago.... I know he takes care of business, a lot. He's very honest about it. And frankly, I do appreciate that. I take care of business often enough as well. I would say we have a very active, fun, good sex life. Better than any guy before and he can keep up with me, which is nice. So, before we actually started cohabitating, he mentioned how he looks at porn too much via internet(I was already aware of this)...and was hoping us moving in together would help it (not stop it...I'm not stupid.) Anyway...I was like, it's not that big of a deal, as long as it doesn't hurt our sex life. And he was like, Babe, I'm not gonna be one of those guys who's on the computer when I've got my naked girlfriend in the next room.
Well, he is that guy. I'm in bed, reading, around the house or whatever(and NAKED) and he's in his room jacking off to porn on the internet. I know he is, don't even have to check. And he does it like 2-3 times a day. Even after we have gotten naked. Now, I am not saying I am God's gift or anything, or even the best in bed, but I think I am better than his frigging hand and the naked chicks on the SCREEN! It's one thing if it's "that time", I'll give him that, but if I'm around, and he knows DAMN well, am ALWAYS ready, why does he do it? I am actually taking offense to this. Wouldn't any of you guys rather get it on with me than jack off? Or is it too time consuming to have sex with your girlfriend and it's easier to take care of business??? I like it all the time, and most of all before bed time- I sleep so well. I just don't get it. I am a very sexual being, I think I look pretty good, love sex and taking care of business-even in front of him...
Am I being too sensitive? Did I think guys take care of business less? Is porn that much better? I am SERIOUSLY thinking of talking to him about this and I admit, I am a bit scared that A) that he will LIE, B) I don't want to know the answer or C) feel like a pyscho bitch which I have always prided myself on NOT being. Most of my close friends are men.
I don't know... I am scared to talk about it to any of my friends(too personal) and I know that I am throwing my personal life on anyone that is reading this and probably doesn't give a fuck, but I would appreciate any feed back.
I will sign off with this...sorry to be a burden on any strangers here... But I need some feed back before I have the talk. Too scared the boy lived alone for too long and is a porn addict or something. I like porn too....
Help, I do not have many self esteem problems, but this is hitting hard core.
-K
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Porn should work with your sex life, not against it.
donzell:
Hey, are you going to the Open Event tomorrow night?