grendel_kin

oh-kay.....

the turkey is a memory and now it is time to roll up my sleeves, buy a x-mas tree and get ready to cockslap christmas with my good cheer.


**grendel unzips pants and pulls out good cheer**

here christmas, christmas. c'mon christmas.

**hidden, christmas cowers in shadowed corner hoping that santa gets here in time**

to be continued...........possibly.......

trying to reinvent my relationship with this coming holiday season.....

after turkey day, i'm going to buy a tree an decorate that mother fucker with every drop of x-mas spirit that i can squeeze from my infantile heart.

from december 1st, i'm going to end every conversation with, "and merry christmas!"

i'm gonna buy a silly sweater, even though i now live in los angeles....a...
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these are strange times in paradise.



............................hi!

my name is michael.


what's yours?

below is what happens when i taste a little of the drinky-drinky and get to typing-typing.........


to go back to NYC?

to surrender and return to my island home?

to stay empty and win more adoration?

to keep fighting despite the bloodloss?

to remember why i began to love her?

to find that one that i had let go?

to find that one that i...
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i shared a night recently.

it was tender, tawdry and titillating.


there are words i could throw around, giving my would be readers a smattering of images and feelings, but i have not the skill to capture the sound of those early morning echoes ringing true in some unnamed alley. i had almost forgotten the pleasure of a momentary collision of two dandy souls.


....."i...
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getting closer.....


the word of the day is....?

edited to say.......hello.

i feel old.


...not only is the glass half empty, there appears to be a hole in the bottom of it.


um........help.



yes, really.....help.


excuse me. yes, you....but, ahhhh.....help.



i want ice cream.




i'll be gone for awhile.......take care, kiddies.

i feel that i am going through that rough and tumble adolescent emotional sideshow a decade late. i have been in a semi-panicked state for some time now. before i was so stable.....not always happy, but stable, funny and i had some perspective. now............?

.....i am just waiting for the pimples to begin their assault.

i can run seven miles in under an hour.


you can leave your odes to my coolness below.


START WRITING THOSE ODES, DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my yesterday...........

i'm up.

i'm down.

i'm up.

i'm down.

i'm up.

i'm down.

i'm up.

i'm down.

i'm up.

i'm down.


...........these manic, manic days are devastating in the end. no matter what side of the emotional coin you finish on.

i had the worst five minutes of my career yesterday. all these doors that were open, suddenly were shut to me. important doors....
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