*shrugs shoulders*
You would think that after few days of not posting that I'd have SOMETHING to talk about. Sadly, I've got nothing to say.
Wearing: purple bra, AE undies that say SMART on the ass, jeans, aqua colored scoop neck shirt. My hair is up in a loose bun.
Feeling: NOTICE: the following are not necessarily in the order of their importance: Tired( too much gym time makes Gray a very energetic girl)...horny(ummm...yeah)...cautiously hopeful(about the house)
Planning: Going to the FNX AlternaTour on Thursday May 18th in Boston with some friends.
Jumpingup&downwithexcitement: Tattoo Day is Saturday! Yippee! Yahooooo!
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WWYD?
(What would YOU do?)
I was going to ask the Dating Sucks Group about this but maybe I'll ask here too... When I was with my exbf, a guy at work asked me out. At the time, I was a little speechless, flattered and didn't know what to say to him, so I said I didn't date co-workers. (I did date a co-worker a long time ago and it was very awkward after we broke up.)
Most work nights this guy and I hang out and talk and I've really gotten to know him. We are at a point where we flirt and tease each other. *blush* I think it would be fun to go out sometime, but don't know how to go about asking...or even if he would want to. I mean, I basically rejected him the first time. Secondly, I'm very leery about dating a co-worker. I really don't want to be fodder for the gossip mill at work...
*Le sigh* What to do...What to do...
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Ok.Ok. So MAYBE I had more to say than I originally thought. *grinning* Hopefully I'll get the chance to catch up with all that's going on in YOUR lives after a quick snooze...
Adios Muchachos!
*kiss*
Gray
* I was feeling ambitious and decided to start checking up on my friends and put off my nap. I always start at the beginning of the alphabet so I clicked on Allegory. I haven't known her for very long, but when I first started reading her journal I immediately felt a connection. (We are both moms and a bit older than the usual SG crowd) We surprisingly had a lot in common and we were starting to make plans to meet up when she came to NYC on business.
I just came from her SG site and dicovered from her daughter that Allegory is no longer with us. So I am sitting here crying, rather hysterically. This is hitting me hard. It is bringing up a lot of feelings I haven't had in a while. It hurts me to think about the level of sadness, desperation and hopelessness Allegory had reached in order to take her own life. I know first hand how these feelings can even overwhelm a mother's love for her children. The pain inside is so bad you'll do anything to get rid of it. I know....
I use to think that comitting suicide was brave. I tried but failed miserably each time. I convinced myself that those that succeeded were much better off and the world would be a better place, too. I can tell you now that my world is not a better place without Allegory in it. I will miss her and our blossoming friendship...
Rest in peace, darling...you're free!
You would think that after few days of not posting that I'd have SOMETHING to talk about. Sadly, I've got nothing to say.
Wearing: purple bra, AE undies that say SMART on the ass, jeans, aqua colored scoop neck shirt. My hair is up in a loose bun.
Feeling: NOTICE: the following are not necessarily in the order of their importance: Tired( too much gym time makes Gray a very energetic girl)...horny(ummm...yeah)...cautiously hopeful(about the house)
Planning: Going to the FNX AlternaTour on Thursday May 18th in Boston with some friends.
Jumpingup&downwithexcitement: Tattoo Day is Saturday! Yippee! Yahooooo!
**************************************************
WWYD?
(What would YOU do?)
I was going to ask the Dating Sucks Group about this but maybe I'll ask here too... When I was with my exbf, a guy at work asked me out. At the time, I was a little speechless, flattered and didn't know what to say to him, so I said I didn't date co-workers. (I did date a co-worker a long time ago and it was very awkward after we broke up.)
Most work nights this guy and I hang out and talk and I've really gotten to know him. We are at a point where we flirt and tease each other. *blush* I think it would be fun to go out sometime, but don't know how to go about asking...or even if he would want to. I mean, I basically rejected him the first time. Secondly, I'm very leery about dating a co-worker. I really don't want to be fodder for the gossip mill at work...
*Le sigh* What to do...What to do...
***************************************************
Ok.Ok. So MAYBE I had more to say than I originally thought. *grinning* Hopefully I'll get the chance to catch up with all that's going on in YOUR lives after a quick snooze...
Adios Muchachos!
*kiss*
Gray
* I was feeling ambitious and decided to start checking up on my friends and put off my nap. I always start at the beginning of the alphabet so I clicked on Allegory. I haven't known her for very long, but when I first started reading her journal I immediately felt a connection. (We are both moms and a bit older than the usual SG crowd) We surprisingly had a lot in common and we were starting to make plans to meet up when she came to NYC on business.
I just came from her SG site and dicovered from her daughter that Allegory is no longer with us. So I am sitting here crying, rather hysterically. This is hitting me hard. It is bringing up a lot of feelings I haven't had in a while. It hurts me to think about the level of sadness, desperation and hopelessness Allegory had reached in order to take her own life. I know first hand how these feelings can even overwhelm a mother's love for her children. The pain inside is so bad you'll do anything to get rid of it. I know....
I use to think that comitting suicide was brave. I tried but failed miserably each time. I convinced myself that those that succeeded were much better off and the world would be a better place, too. I can tell you now that my world is not a better place without Allegory in it. I will miss her and our blossoming friendship...
Rest in peace, darling...you're free!
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sleeantagh:
Pretty picture 
timirevolting:
So sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. The way you became aware of the news must have been very difficult to handle. Had a similiar experience in the past with a friend I was'nt exactly very close to, but had a deep connection with that I had kept to myself. Had not seen her in a while and decided to stop by her work and was literally floored when I heard the news. I can somewhat imagine how you must have felt and how you may feel sad, angry and cheated out of your blossoming friendship. I hope you don't allow this to interupt your life and continue being happy.