graycen

My weekend was an interesting one. I went from acting like a protective parent to jumping around onstage like a crazy kid! It's weird 'cause I don't act my age and I've been told I don't look my age, but at times I definitely FEEL my age. For example: Thursday I took my daughter to see Fall out Boy at the Civic Center in Portland. The openers were just as good as the headliner! (The Hush Sound, From First to Last, Hawthorne Heights, All American Rejects) Well...My daughter wanted to be on the floor because she liked the vibe (She told me when she saw Weezer she moshed around), which I totally understand. I just couldn't bring myself to do it though. I felt so OLD. We found seats about 5 rows up right next to the main stage. Boy was she pissed at me! Friday: I met up with fellow SG member 7Deuce and hit the streets of Boston for a night of shenanigans! We scored tickets to see Dropkick Murphys at the Avalon which was fucking awesome! At the beginning of the concert, I was stationed safely off to the side, but then something snapped inside and I needed to be jumping around in the pit like a crazy girl. *smile* Nothing like being pushed, shoved, stepped on, kicked in the head and sweated all over! *grinning* ( If I didn't have a belt on I would have lost my jeans when someone stepped on the hem! As it was, I had to turn them into shorts 'cause they ripped up the side!)My daughter would have FUCKING KILLED me if she knew I did exactly what I wouldn't let her do the night before!
I go though feeling like this from time to time. I had to grow up fast. My last year of high school and college years were spent busting my ass working, going to college and being a single mom. I didn't date and I hardly ever went out. Now that I'm divorced and my kids are older I want to do all the fun stuff I missed out on...only part of my brain thinks I'm too fucking old. Maybe I am. *sigh*

(This is for you cyamus...)

wearing: Red white and blue starred pj pants (i'm feeling patriotic tonight, i guess), white husband beater, hair in messy bun & "geek girl" glasses.
feeling: a bit off tonight. I don't want to say depressed...although feeling sad is part of it...ummm...maybe disappointed in myself? Maybe that's it.
drinking: Chai tea which has 30mg of caffeine. I've had 2 cups so far. Needless to say I'm not going to be able to sleep very well tonight.
playing: "Deal or No Deal" online. I'm slightly addicted to the game.
thinking: "Gray you're a bitch, you know that?!" I'm being hard on myself tonight.
watching: Napoleon Dynamite. Not my usual pick but after hearing " Do chickens have sharp talons?" a hundred times I had to see it!