PAIN MANAGEMENT
I'm feeling some relief from my inner turmoil. Acceptance and resolution is just around the corner. Today I could FEEL it...I could almost taste it. It is coming. Pieces are starting to slip back into place without much superglue at all! What will I do with a whole heart again? What will I do?
I feel scared. I don't want to let go. ( Letting goes means giving up. Part of me never wants to give up hope.) I was just getting comfortable living with the pain all over again and now it is starting to fade. Slowly but surely. I can FEEL it ebb. I feel scared. Scared of being pain free. Scared of living. Scared of being happy. Scared of it happening all over again...
****2:51 pm
I went to kiss my 4 yo and I bumped my newly pierced nose on his head. MOTHERFUCKER that hurt! My eyes are still watering and I feel queasy from seeing stars. Why do I always bump parts that are already hurting/injured?
I'm feeling some relief from my inner turmoil. Acceptance and resolution is just around the corner. Today I could FEEL it...I could almost taste it. It is coming. Pieces are starting to slip back into place without much superglue at all! What will I do with a whole heart again? What will I do?
I feel scared. I don't want to let go. ( Letting goes means giving up. Part of me never wants to give up hope.) I was just getting comfortable living with the pain all over again and now it is starting to fade. Slowly but surely. I can FEEL it ebb. I feel scared. Scared of being pain free. Scared of living. Scared of being happy. Scared of it happening all over again...
****2:51 pm
I went to kiss my 4 yo and I bumped my newly pierced nose on his head. MOTHERFUCKER that hurt! My eyes are still watering and I feel queasy from seeing stars. Why do I always bump parts that are already hurting/injured?
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The name won out because there's a Saint called Cecelia and she's the patron saint of musicians
I will save the name Marisia for another instrument with wonderful tone and curves
We all have to stop being scared or we wouldnt do anything
We just have to learn as we go and try not to make the same mistakes
It's sods law to hit a part of yourself that's already hurting. I do it all the time
[Edited on Jan 14, 2006 6:43PM]
oh.. and btw.. I referenced you in my newest journal.. it's rather epic and quite a "I'm a new person!" journal, but still.. I'm pleased with it. I just thought I'd let you know that I referenced one of your journals.
wuv you.