grapefruit

i'll take this opportunity to say hello
and goodbye, i think.

my months are running down to only a few days and without a computer at home,
or time at work to fuck off,
well...
i'm not fucking around here too much anymore.

and my aim isn't on, so blah.

so much IS going on.
we cut loose of that girl on monday.
i had loosely trained my replacement and have now been appropriately appointed.
i've been sitting at my new desk for a few days;
learning the ropes.

i like it, but it's stressful.
i feel weak admitting i've been in tears after already banging heads with people.
such is the nature of this game,
and i've hardly ever appreciated the rules and regulations.
but i suppose that there have to be standards somewhere.

today i chauffeured my boss to our plant and got the tour.
my favorite part of mr. roger's was watching the moving picture machine show us how things work.

i always wonder how and why,
it's just the way my brain works...
i figure if i can understand behind the scenes, the big picture might make more sense.

i love coldplay.
for the record.

five weeks.
well, we're on week four, so roughly a month remains.
it's ridiculous,
it's my home and i don't want to go. i don't want to be interrupted.
i don't want to share with ingratus abusus.
i don't want to be used anymore. i can't allow it. not from that source, especially.
it's just not right.
i have my own life to lead.

i wonder how and why.
i wonder how and why i let it get so far.

love is blind, sometimes.
i must be more choosey.

hahahahahahahahahaha (maniacal)

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precious moments and dr. suess.
i've labeled my monitor with stickers.
i think stickers are fun.

lisa frank and care bears.
yesh i'm cheezy.

i love to learn.
i've learned a lot over the last long time and i can say it's been fun.
a good day is one i've learned something new and felt grateful for the time spent alive.




i love you.
i miss you.

if you love me, you know how to find me.
and if not,
maybe i'll find you first.

i'll be waiting.

just kidding.
i have plenty to keep me busy.

: : :
wilderness
exuberance
weather
expatiation
worth it




see you on the road,
again


there she goes
singin' oooh, baby, oooh oooh