the curtains i made are billowing in the window.
i'm sitting in the floor and can feel the breeze on me.
i've got the apartment dark. i'm thinking of lighting candles.
i can hear a distant rumble and i know storms are rolling in.
i think i'll go get a bottle of wine, too.
I don't remember the order the were on the
cd, though....
Perfect Day: Lou Reed, I think
Bury The Evidence: Tricky
Over: Portishead
Where The Wild Roses Grow: Nick Cave
Life in Mono: Mono
In Theory: Mira
Blue Light: Mazzy Star
Better Things: Massive Attack
Resist: Kosheen
Hands Away: Interpol
Sunrise: Cranes
Beautiful Today: Amstrong
Playground Love: Air
it started raining early this morning.
the lighting and thunder woke me up around three.
i hadn't gone to sleep until about one, but the sound was actually quite welcome.
i keep my bedroom window and back screen door open after i get home because the draft cools the apartment significantly.
i'm grateful i have yet to use the a/c.
besides, it smells good outside.... Read More
ok the moment has come at last. after reading this I
understood that lately i've been focusing too much on
my own issues and craziness rather than pay a little more
attention to the people around me, which strangely I consider
you to be... the person around me. And I guess i've just
clicked and faded away... can you blame me? don't.
and of course i've been listening to coldplay for like 3 days
straight and it's all yellow now. I too slept with my window
open last night. I also slept with someone this time. And I
showed emotions that were completely fake and I hate
myself for that. here I go again, talking about myself.
can't help it. you seem strong. stronger. and i'm glad that
your family is doing somewhat ok. because in the end
it's pretty much all we have in this world -- family...
you can pretend it's not so, but it is. unconditional love.
you would think that someone out there is able to give you
that but the truth is I don't think such thing exists.
call me.
i'll take this opportunity to say hello
and goodbye, i think.
my months are running down to only a few days and without a computer at home,
or time at work to fuck off,
well...
i'm not fucking around here too much anymore.
and my aim isn't on, so blah.
so much IS going on.
we cut loose of that girl on monday.
i had... Read More
Man, this sucks. You make me smile. Ok well that's not a smile, but you know what I mean. If you care to you can e-mail me sometime.
Good luck with everything. It honestly sounds like you've got your eye on everything, and that's the first step in making sure that the shit that you don't want to happen won't.
OK, take care, and thanks for making me smile. A couple of times it was really needed.
i'm tired today.....woke up at 4:30 (after crashing at 2:30)
to find out that my friends car was broken into near my house.
literaly $10,000 of camera equip was stolen. bummed.
i guess the day can only get better. i hope.
it's so good. you melt it and add milk, it has cianamin, and maybe nutmeg in it. i'm not sure where you live but in LA it's pretty easy to find. if you can't find it, send me your address and i'll mail you some
keep finding myself as a faded sheet in the background of some blas scene.
and it's okay. i like it this way.
sifted into the meaningless leftovers.
given some time, perhaps, it'll be just this sheet.
and not a soul will understand that it's been hanging so long, a backdrop to a boring set, weathered and worn.
and some person may just tear it down,... Read More
what's great is that i doubt anyone will read [ this ] entry.
so i can just blather away without worrying that someone will see this.
i mean, sure, someone might see it, but people usually don't take the time to finger through a person's past for understanding.
i'm realizing why i have only one friend.
i mean, technically, if maybe one or two other... Read More