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another sunday past. the first in a month or so i wasn't very sick in the morning.
i may have a job soon.

read this today, it stuck out on the page, for no apparent reason:

And I was tormented by the thought that I might not have
time to accomplish my task. What task? I had no idea.

this is from The Fall....
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the weekend's over now.
we didn't do much. today we went to the local super-Walmart to buy groceries.
it's about 15 miles out of town, a pleasant drive.
it's been murky and overcast for two or three days in a row. the same undesirable day.
haven't read anything in a while.
see about doing some things this week.

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uneven day today.
like a whirlwind all morning.

felt better this evening. almost time for bed now.
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reading wittgenstein, the blue book.
finished going after cacciato, but wasn't feeling well while reading much of it. pretty good book. wasn't quite what I remembered it to be.
some things are truer than others.
some things are better than others.
still waiting to hear from the college about admission to the graduate program in biology. check the mail every day in a somewhat exasperated...
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woke up sick again this morning. i guess it's a part of being schizophrenic; the diversity of ailments that strike one.
it's like waking up on Mars sometimes.
sometimes i have headaches, i take a analgesics and librium for; the pain severe sometimes.
looking for a job. i have a college degree and have done some graduate work, but I can't find any jobs right...
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so, for readers who follow me, or wanted to, I may be posting more now.
Things arent going very well for me right now.

Ive been reading baudelaire and rimbaud; and hemingway, a farewell to arms. Which is somewhat of a heartbreaking story . . . (though flawed.)
Some visions often seem as quiet as wind in the trees,
or the falling snow in Arlington.

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I wonder who all reads this.
It's 1:29 am now. I went to the gym earlier today. It used to be when I resumed working out, things got better fairly quickly. But today was the worst day yet. I jogged twenty minutes then worked on the weight machines for 35 minutes. I'm still tired now. Sunday is a day off working out fortunately.
So ....
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wasn't up until 3 pm today.
It was very nice out. I spent some time driving. It feels unusually quiet in the apartment alone. It's about 11:30 pm now.
I was reading a few books I got at the bookstore. I buy a lot of books I don't end up reading entirely. Recently I read through Choke and No Country for Old Men. I guess...
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so, it's 1 in the morning.
insomnia seems like a consistent issue now. maybe it's drinking too much caffeine.
we drove back from Danville earlier. we had to stop at every gas station practically. I felt sick like I had a migraine. I had to chew gum and drink coffee and coke to stay alert.
Billly, our dog, though, was being good. He sat quietly...
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