I'm still bored and awake, so the first thing the drugs tell me to write is......
...a brief description of my love for voyeurism and exhibitionism. Huzzah!
Unlike most of my fetishes I have a really hard time tracking the origin of my love for watching and displaying. Despite this what I do know about this kink is where I derive my enjoyment from. I really like that it is a two way street, the whole idea mandates two parties which must be in some kind of balance. There needs to be just as many watchers as performers, regardless of whether the two parties are aware of each other.
If you will allow me to get nerdy for a moment I grew up (and still enjoy) playing RPG's. One of the most common systems, D&D, has a nine point classification system for a characters moral orientation. It uses combinations of the titles, lawful, neutral, chaotic, good and evil. At the epicenter of these denominations is true neutral. Someone who neither cares for good or evil but operates entirely to maintain a balance of power in the world. This true neutral rarely occurs in RPG's and even less so in reality, and yet I always associated my characters and my personality with this unique orientation.
If you've toughed it out this long you are surely wondering (or maybe are clever enough to have already deduced) where this is going. Exhibitionism and voyeurism are my favorite fetishes because I feel like I need to be the balance between the two elements. I love to watch people from a distance. This doesn't need to be sexual or erotic but the performer must always be unaware that they are being watched. As I watch someone I realize that if they were more secluded or more wary of their surroundings they may hide their actions or at the very least furtively watch about themselves to see if anyone was observing them. If this were to happen I could no longer indulge in my pleasure. Therefore, to bring the balance I was referring to, I ensure that I give back to the voyeurs of the world as much as I take out of it in the form of exhibitionism. I dance to music on my headphones with my eyes closed in public places, I wear revealing clothing, (not flashing but leaving plenty of opportunity for people who are interested) and set my room up with curtains and lighting arrangements resulting in a large window (with a view of a busy toronto intersection) that I cannot see out of but that passers by can easily see into.
In this fashion I get both the ying and the yang of a fetish, simultaneously giving and receiving. It's almost like a psychological 69 position between me and any consenting members of the public.
Is it any wonder my next favorite fetish is domination and submission? However, the dawn approaches and the drugs are wearing my mind thin. Examination of other fetishes shall have to wait for another day. (If I feel so inclined) Kudos for lasting this long.
...a brief description of my love for voyeurism and exhibitionism. Huzzah!
Unlike most of my fetishes I have a really hard time tracking the origin of my love for watching and displaying. Despite this what I do know about this kink is where I derive my enjoyment from. I really like that it is a two way street, the whole idea mandates two parties which must be in some kind of balance. There needs to be just as many watchers as performers, regardless of whether the two parties are aware of each other.
If you will allow me to get nerdy for a moment I grew up (and still enjoy) playing RPG's. One of the most common systems, D&D, has a nine point classification system for a characters moral orientation. It uses combinations of the titles, lawful, neutral, chaotic, good and evil. At the epicenter of these denominations is true neutral. Someone who neither cares for good or evil but operates entirely to maintain a balance of power in the world. This true neutral rarely occurs in RPG's and even less so in reality, and yet I always associated my characters and my personality with this unique orientation.
If you've toughed it out this long you are surely wondering (or maybe are clever enough to have already deduced) where this is going. Exhibitionism and voyeurism are my favorite fetishes because I feel like I need to be the balance between the two elements. I love to watch people from a distance. This doesn't need to be sexual or erotic but the performer must always be unaware that they are being watched. As I watch someone I realize that if they were more secluded or more wary of their surroundings they may hide their actions or at the very least furtively watch about themselves to see if anyone was observing them. If this were to happen I could no longer indulge in my pleasure. Therefore, to bring the balance I was referring to, I ensure that I give back to the voyeurs of the world as much as I take out of it in the form of exhibitionism. I dance to music on my headphones with my eyes closed in public places, I wear revealing clothing, (not flashing but leaving plenty of opportunity for people who are interested) and set my room up with curtains and lighting arrangements resulting in a large window (with a view of a busy toronto intersection) that I cannot see out of but that passers by can easily see into.
In this fashion I get both the ying and the yang of a fetish, simultaneously giving and receiving. It's almost like a psychological 69 position between me and any consenting members of the public.
Is it any wonder my next favorite fetish is domination and submission? However, the dawn approaches and the drugs are wearing my mind thin. Examination of other fetishes shall have to wait for another day. (If I feel so inclined) Kudos for lasting this long.