fucking ex's dont email me being a fucking dick and calling me names. id rather not talk to you at all.
a crow died outside the bedroom window this morning. it was huge.
thanks to josh i went out and ate lots for dinner. yum yum dots. first real meal since ive been here. hes super nice and ill kick anyone in the balls, or... Read More
this is going to be of no help to anyone but me. i need to write a list where i wont lose it.
call 3 places about needing roomies.
find another job.
eat better.
figure out food stuff.
take resumes around
find a place to live find a place to live find a place to live find a place to live find a place to... Read More
okay i finally made it to pdx. bigdirtys grabbed me from the airport,and so far everyone in the northwest is insanly nice. its almost freakishly nice. pbr, mmmm. yeah i gotta start liking it now. im so fucking tired. word. tomorrow were swimmy suit shopping. so far things are fucking fabulous. bds made some awesome dinner. YUM!
wow so ive had such a great time in nyc the past week. ate great food, met awesome people, drank good beer, and had a blast in the sun even tho im not a fan of it. met gram at ps1, which was good times. had great talks with lots of people who got me all excited about portland and reminded me i wasnt trapped... Read More
alright today wasnt so bad. tried to think less, and have more fun. kept myself fairly occupied running around manhattan with bbb and one of his friends. finally had some nyc pizza again fucking hell did i miss it. mmmmm gingerlie love pizza! trying not to think so much, not that is been much of a problem my brain is too much amuck to really... Read More
you silly little girl.
you called me once, i missed it by 5 minutes. was going to head into manhatten, but you never called back! too bad! but i do plan to join at ps1 tomorrow. i need to sleep, but call me when you get a definate time.
word up!
in nyc.
this morning before i left my mom called to wish me luck and inform me that my aunt was at the hospital having open heart surgery. this comes as no suprise they were suppose to do this months ago but put it off because of her other illness. her kidneys are also failing because of a lifetime of drinking. her heart is bad... Read More
well, the shitty thing, is that later in life, you realize your parents probably were right. but the good part is, that it doesn't really matter. just live life, no regrets, and try to learn from the mistakes. thats all that is really important. don't forget to hit me up, girl!
alright, leave in the morning for nyc. packed what i could in the 3 bags i could scrounge up and my backpack. leaving lots behind. i guess thats okay seeing as how if i cant find a job or home ill have to come back anyway. im really starting to second guess myself. its not good. i feel awful. terrible headache. terrible heartache. terrible me.... Read More
as you go against the current trends you attain both valuable knowledge and regrets alike, the regrets become painful, but you can never replace the knowing, it is the absolute of exsistence...the pain is the price paid for the highest knowledge...
So many of those people in the little towns with their friends and families are actually very unhappy with their existence but never try to escape so take some comfort in that you are moving around and looking for something you genuinely like. When you are in transit, also, it's very hard not to be over-immersed in the present and unable to put things in perspective. And I'm not even sure that putting things into perspective is all it is cracked up to be. It's just one side of a coin: you had to be lost in order to be found.
why does my heart feel like its crumbling into a million pieces when i know im doing what i have to?
why am i forced to hurt the one person who really cares about me in order to make things better for myself?
why cant things be easy?
apparently to get ahold of delta airlines you have to call at 3am. luckly i found out... Read More
Hope you called delta today,mmm apple cinnamon muffins,can you make some,i suck at cooking certain things but i make some killer macroni and cheese!! good luck
rockon
don't worry. everything will get better in a little bit.
weds. huh? well, i work thurs and fri nite, so we can hang on sat or sun, unless you wanna come keep me company at work...hahahahahahah! anyway, don't forget to hit me up when you get here.
i guess you didn't catch me laughing hysterically after i asked. no, baby, i work in a computer lab on campus! pretty exciting, huh? i would buy you a 40oz and let you drink it in the lab!
take care of greggster and charity for me
poop