Fuck, it's happening again.
It always goes down like this.
It always goes down like this.
He called me tonight while I was putting the finishing touches on dinner. "Whatchya doing, baby?" he asked me. He's been so attentive lately.
"Slaving away over a hot stove, naturally," I said.
"Sounds lovely," he said.
"I'm perfecting my cooking skills for our long prosperous life together," I said. I noticed my mother staring at me in disbelief. I covered up the mouthpiece.
"What's...
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"Slaving away over a hot stove, naturally," I said.
"Sounds lovely," he said.
"I'm perfecting my cooking skills for our long prosperous life together," I said. I noticed my mother staring at me in disbelief. I covered up the mouthpiece.
"What's...
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jeremy:
Ah...that scene is true on so many levels...I love it.
mmm...perverted desires. that's even better than forbidden donut.
mmm...perverted desires. that's even better than forbidden donut.
They're listening. Be careful what you say.
I cut off all my hair. I feel better now. More like myself, less apt to put on makeup every day. It's easy, and easy rules the day, these days.
I cut off all my hair. I feel better now. More like myself, less apt to put on makeup every day. It's easy, and easy rules the day, these days.
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digdug:
you know we all wanna see it
goatsgotohell:
Hey that's the way to go sometimes no matter what the gender. I know I enjoy being able to swim or whatever the hell else I want to go do and not worry that my hair looks really retarded when I'm done. 
Btw, thanks for actually reading my last few entries, I think that makes you the only one. *L*
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squid_vicious:
Evel Knievel kidnapped his (first) wife.
I can offer you nothing useful so, instead, I offer you that fun little piece of trivia.
I can offer you nothing useful so, instead, I offer you that fun little piece of trivia.
timmy:
...The afternoon is here
And now your in high gear.
You just stay in bed all day
Like an eagle hunting prey...
And now your in high gear.
You just stay in bed all day
Like an eagle hunting prey...
They always are listening, ESPECIALLY when we think they're not.
She told me I was being selfish and he and I left in a hurry. We took dad's truck.
Dinner was good but I couldn't concentrate. When we're fighting, that's all I can think about, no matter how hard I try just to put it out of my mind. "Forget about her," he said. "Don't let this ruin your night."
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Dinner was good but I couldn't concentrate. When we're fighting, that's all I can think about, no matter how hard I try just to put it out of my mind. "Forget about her," he said. "Don't let this ruin your night."
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digdug:
Keep 'em coming. My brain is swooning.
eris:
nice entry...
...and have you seen the glf puppet show or is the garbage liberation front spontaniously generating? either prospect is exciting!
-eris.
...and have you seen the glf puppet show or is the garbage liberation front spontaniously generating? either prospect is exciting!
-eris.
... I'd rather write than meditate, anyway ...
Let's see. Clackety-clack. I know there's something in my brain just now that's not random or mundane.
Like my heartfelt fondness for submission and sex with pain.
Jon tells me I'm a little girl incapable of taking care of myself.
From him, it's a compliment.
To him, I'm another potential future concubine.
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Let's see. Clackety-clack. I know there's something in my brain just now that's not random or mundane.
Like my heartfelt fondness for submission and sex with pain.
Jon tells me I'm a little girl incapable of taking care of myself.
From him, it's a compliment.
To him, I'm another potential future concubine.
I know he's trying to...
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a35mmlife:
i just want to be manipulated.
croncheee:
That's fawkin ossom you're into Against Me. They were here a lil bit ago and rocked out. I love "Jamaican me crazy" sucha good song.
I spent all day cleaning my twin sister's apartment. I scrubbed her kitchen. I got her living room in order. I even cleaned her bedroom. Her place was a real mess, and I felt like doing something nice for her, because she works all the time and I don't. I felt like Cinderella. It was cute. I did my best to feng shui the damn...
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tryptamine_____:
hmm. i, too, am painfully (ridiculously, stupidly, etc) shy around women. i always thought it might have helped if i had had a strong female presence like a sister when i was growing up...
i guess i have to go search for some other lame excuse now.
i guess i have to go search for some other lame excuse now.
zona:
i too have been for the longest time very shy and even competitive around women. but within the last year or so i have been trying really hard to get over it and i have made alot more women friends. trouble is, now im just attracted to all of them. the reason that it is trouble is that i have a boyfriend and all i want is women!
The doctors want to put me on some funny brain drugs but I told them that I'm depressed because the world is a depressing place to live, and at least feeling this way gives me the motivation to do something about it.
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claudia:
Don't get me wrong, medications are damn useful in many a person's life. I no longer took anti-depressants a year ago, but upon going to the college from hell I was forced to go back on them to retain some sense of sanity. Looking back at the many psychiatric rollercoasters the doctors put me through, I wish that I had consulted about five different psychiatrists before actually agreeing to open my mouth wide. Half the time these people don't know what the hell they are talking about, they're just guessing about your psychological make-up from a set of facts that they have memorized from a cute, concise little book. I have been diagnosed with (drumroll please) Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Depression, Manic Depression , ADD, borderline personality disorder (the most scattered mental illness of them all), and schizophrenia (cause I decided to fuck with the doctors after they gave me that stupid test (MMRI, I think) asking me what kind of bowel movements I had and whether or not I read gardening magazines). I was amused, but they weren't. You're old enough that you do not have to worry about your parents throwing you in a hospital due to a lack of parenting skills, thank the sweet lord. I actually want to be a psychiatrist later in life because I think they are all such raging douchebags. They seem to forget that a child is not a guinea pig and the mind is a terrible thing to play with. Cause money makes the world go round, and that's all they care about. So make sure your psychiatrist isn't an egocentric whoremonger, and follow your heart. If you have doubts. don't do it.
That concludes this informational session from Claudia. Tune in next time for highlights about her stint as a nymphomaniac at the ripe age of fifteen. Tata
That concludes this informational session from Claudia. Tune in next time for highlights about her stint as a nymphomaniac at the ripe age of fifteen. Tata
a35mmlife:
*adjusts antenna*
dont wanna miss the next episode!!!
Gimmie... there is good advise being tossed at ya from all sides here...just make sure to talk to a whole bunch of folks before decising upon which meds and what dosage... and remember to listen to yourself too...sometimes after just a short period your body will be telling you if the treatment (should that include meds or not) is right for you or not...
b strong.
dont wanna miss the next episode!!!
Gimmie... there is good advise being tossed at ya from all sides here...just make sure to talk to a whole bunch of folks before decising upon which meds and what dosage... and remember to listen to yourself too...sometimes after just a short period your body will be telling you if the treatment (should that include meds or not) is right for you or not...
b strong.
Today, we passed by a car wreck. It was mostly cleaned up but it looked terrible judging from the broken glass, fire trucks and redirected traffic. The bus I was on made a small detour and we were back on the road, just a little blip on the screen, a little interruption of our continuity but back there, time just stopped upon impact. For those...
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I loved myself properly a little bit ago. No one else is going to stroke me like that, girlie-girl style. Grrrrr...Let me tell you, I'm one hot mama when I'm sexing myself up. I did the whole scene with wine and candles and lemongrass incense and Cat Power on the stereo. Reacquaint myself with a soft touch. It's been a long time since I've been...
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claudia:
oddly enough, i was having lewd daydreams while listening to cat power today as well. i think that means we're meant for each other.
gimmesatisfaction:
I think you're right, Claudia.
Hello friends and neighbors.
Im sick of hating on my hometown.
I spent the last two days tucked away in a little paradise--Who knew that radical, active, creative communities can exist anywhere, even in the heart of Mennonite country, a town where there still are horse-drawn buggy hitches in front of the stores?
It was very inspiring to me, and it made me think: So...
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Im sick of hating on my hometown.
I spent the last two days tucked away in a little paradise--Who knew that radical, active, creative communities can exist anywhere, even in the heart of Mennonite country, a town where there still are horse-drawn buggy hitches in front of the stores?
It was very inspiring to me, and it made me think: So...
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chiquita:
you have an excellent and refreshing attitude, lady. bring 'em down. raise 'em up. you rock.