okay, the suspension went really well. my only complaint is that it felt a little too commercial for such a ritual. i wasn't doing it to entertain. i felt much heavier than i thought i would, but for a first experience i am satisfied. i can't wait to do it again i just hope i can find someone with whom i can share it. i mean i want to hold someone and get more pressure on the hooks. i want to experience the whole, 'the pain was so great...' thing. i want to have to overcome it, not just have it be there as part of what i'm doing.
i had been hanging, and swinging, and spinning for about ten or so minutes when i looked at squeeze and said, "i think i should come down now."
"why," he questioned.
"i'm getting light headed."
"okay," he said as he started to hoist me down.
"and my ears are ringing," i added.
then i was on the ground listening to the medic telling squeeze that he couldn't reach his scissors, i realize this was because he was holding me upright. it didn't make sense that squeeze looked so suprised when i handed him my knife. i didn't put any of this together until lily told me that i had passed out. yea me!
i still don't have internet at my apartment, and i failed to bring the picture disk with me so until i get my shit together, no pictures. i know others have posted them on BME, and well hung has a my space page. so if you're impatient, happy hunting, if not they will be here soon, i promise.
i ran over a bird today and got a few pictures of it, i'll post them too. gives a nice visual to 'bird brain'. don't get me wrong, it was an accident and i do feel bad. i really only enjoy hurting myself.
keep your eyes and ears open.
k, bye
i had been hanging, and swinging, and spinning for about ten or so minutes when i looked at squeeze and said, "i think i should come down now."
"why," he questioned.
"i'm getting light headed."
"okay," he said as he started to hoist me down.
"and my ears are ringing," i added.
then i was on the ground listening to the medic telling squeeze that he couldn't reach his scissors, i realize this was because he was holding me upright. it didn't make sense that squeeze looked so suprised when i handed him my knife. i didn't put any of this together until lily told me that i had passed out. yea me!
i still don't have internet at my apartment, and i failed to bring the picture disk with me so until i get my shit together, no pictures. i know others have posted them on BME, and well hung has a my space page. so if you're impatient, happy hunting, if not they will be here soon, i promise.
i ran over a bird today and got a few pictures of it, i'll post them too. gives a nice visual to 'bird brain'. don't get me wrong, it was an accident and i do feel bad. i really only enjoy hurting myself.
keep your eyes and ears open.
k, bye

I passed out when I got my first nipple pierced. It wasn't the pain, it was the blood.
I ran over a lizard once. I felt soooo bad. It committed suicide though. It ran out into the road as I was approaching, I slowed down, it turned back when it saw me coming, then when I started to speed up to go past it it darted back into the road and under my tire before I had the chance to slow down.
Oh, and I'm from Pasadena too.
But...yay! I'm glad it went well!
The first thing I ever hit was a pigeon. I was getting on the highway and it was in the shadow of an overpass and...BAM! I saw it after it was already too late. It was still alive, though, so I...backed over it to put it out of it's misery.
I cried for-ev-er while parked...on the on ramp. Ha. Like you, the only thing I enjoy hurting is myself, so it was a huge ordeal for me...