From gerta

this duck walks into a bakery and asks,' do you have any grapes?'
'no' replies the baker so the duck leaves.
the next day the duck returns to the bakery and asks, 'do you have any grapes?'
'no' replies the baker.
third day in a row, same thing, but the baker adds, 'if you come in here and ask me for grapes again i'm going to nail your little feet to the floor'
the next day the duck returns to the bakery and asks the baker, 'hey, do you have any nails?'
'no, i don't have any nails'
'do you have any grapes?'

From gerta

i am so fucking sick of complaining about everything! why is it so much easier to see all the 'negative' or uncomfortable shit, and compleatly overlook the parts that make life worth living?

the way i see it human beings are insanely determined, hopeful, creatures. why else would we keep on living?

the past eighteen, make that nineteen, months of my life have consisted of pain, death, loss, and complete heartbreak. but i have managed to push through it all with nothing but diphenhydramine and lots of body modification.

taking into consideration that victor killed himself, gary died as a direct result, and susanne just checked herself into della martin, i'm doing damn good.

i just had to get this out. so, here it is. i hope it helps someone as it has helped me, i think...

From gerta

i like to do stuff. i like to make people laugh. not by trying but by sharing my view of the world with them, which is usually sarcastic and borderline cynical (i'm not the best speller. i usually will use another word, but cynical needs to be here). i do embarass rather easily but you would never know it. i take the words 'friend', 'love', 'hate', and 'angry' very seriously. i would rather adore than be adored. i would rather help than be helped. i would rather ride my bike than drive my car. i would rather take the stairs than the elevator. i would rather be outside than in. i do tend to get frustrated easily at times, but that's usually when i feel rushed or haven't eaten. i wish science fiction wasn't. music and movies keep me sane. i heard sometime ago that, "movies hold the answers to life's riddles." i believe this to be true and can only conclude that music contains the remedy for my heart. never underestimate the power of communication. be yourself. "we are all free to do whatever we want to do. isn't that simple and clean and clear? isn't that a great way to run a universe?" -donald shimoda.