gerta

now she's calling me telling me that she wants to be with me. forgive and forget? way beyond that! more like show up at my door. or better yet be in my bed when i get home (she knows the doors open). i really don't know if i'm up for more pain. fucking high school boys two at a time! maybe this is behavior i need to expect from my twenty-one year old narcisistic spoiled rotton sex pot. loving some one i can't trust is harder than methadone detox! or any detox for that matter. but the pain i'm in is almost enough for me to pick up. hell it's only been seventeen months.