"Head Like a Hole"
So i havent done a real update in awhile, mostly because i was wrapped up with this chick i was dating. now that thats finally over i can go back to leading a normal life. first id like to thank myspace for that gem. second, id like to thank my dick for taking over all of the thinking that my brain usually does. third, id like to thank alcohol. So after all this ended with this chick, i started to notice how depleted i felt. i just forget sometimes that im not really interested in just fucking someone. i thought to myself as all of this was going on, "dude, you really dont like hanging out with this chick, shes a complete fucking alcoholic (which is a big deal coming out of my drunk brain), and you're already over having sex with her." Spending the last however long with this chick has made me realize alot of things, though...
A) Sex with someone you dont give a shit about is really fucking boring after the first couple of drunk times.
B) Sex with a condom sucks. alot. save your high and mighty comments.
C) Life sucks when you smoke 2 packs a day and you're spending more money on condoms than cigarettes. mostly because of A & B.
D) I hate having to fake orgasms just to get some sleep.
E) Im really not that attracted to chicks who arent tattooed or pierced.
F) violently is the shit.
"The Day the World Went Away"
As this "whatever it was" was coming to a grinding halt with this chick, it was really nice to have Mary around to talk to and hang out with. and im the giraffe on her arm. this weekend was a really fucking nice way to get my head back to where it needs to be. i spent all of it hanging out with family and good friends, watching sports. i should be sleeping right now, considering im supposing to be getting up in 4 hours so we can leave for san diego for the NIN show tonite.
"The Wretched"
So, were leaving at 10 for san diego, so that we can spend some time there before the show and not feel so burnt out. the other reason were going so early is so that i can have lunch with "the ex". shes such a fucking awesome person. shes pretty close to being engaged, which i think is really good for her, theres still some tiny moments where that really gets to me, but im genuinely really happy for her and i cant wait to see her.
"Even Deeper"
So my time is almost up here, but before i go i want to get into something that i mentioned earlier. In E) above i mention the whole tattoo/piercing attraction. I was thinking about it more tonite and i realized its more than just an aesthetic thing. getting pierced and tattooed has become the final frontier for anything remotely spiritual for me. i find that my attraction level has a severe dropoff if she doesnt have any ink or piercings for me to play with. and on a deeper level, i feel like right off of the bat i have less in common with this person. i realize that people get inked and pierced for different reasons, but we all kind of get to the same destination. alright i think im done.
almost.
"La Mer"
I dont think im going to sleep tonite, but i feel better after getting this out. im open to any questions, comments, or thoughts. and by the way, everyone whos still here with me should go add gschnider , hes pretty slow on the whole updating your profile thing, but maybe if enough of you go add him hell get on the ball. for those of you that hung out until the end, thanks.
heres a picture of trent singing "hurt" last night
So i havent done a real update in awhile, mostly because i was wrapped up with this chick i was dating. now that thats finally over i can go back to leading a normal life. first id like to thank myspace for that gem. second, id like to thank my dick for taking over all of the thinking that my brain usually does. third, id like to thank alcohol. So after all this ended with this chick, i started to notice how depleted i felt. i just forget sometimes that im not really interested in just fucking someone. i thought to myself as all of this was going on, "dude, you really dont like hanging out with this chick, shes a complete fucking alcoholic (which is a big deal coming out of my drunk brain), and you're already over having sex with her." Spending the last however long with this chick has made me realize alot of things, though...
A) Sex with someone you dont give a shit about is really fucking boring after the first couple of drunk times.
B) Sex with a condom sucks. alot. save your high and mighty comments.
C) Life sucks when you smoke 2 packs a day and you're spending more money on condoms than cigarettes. mostly because of A & B.
D) I hate having to fake orgasms just to get some sleep.
E) Im really not that attracted to chicks who arent tattooed or pierced.
F) violently is the shit.
"The Day the World Went Away"
As this "whatever it was" was coming to a grinding halt with this chick, it was really nice to have Mary around to talk to and hang out with. and im the giraffe on her arm. this weekend was a really fucking nice way to get my head back to where it needs to be. i spent all of it hanging out with family and good friends, watching sports. i should be sleeping right now, considering im supposing to be getting up in 4 hours so we can leave for san diego for the NIN show tonite.
"The Wretched"
So, were leaving at 10 for san diego, so that we can spend some time there before the show and not feel so burnt out. the other reason were going so early is so that i can have lunch with "the ex". shes such a fucking awesome person. shes pretty close to being engaged, which i think is really good for her, theres still some tiny moments where that really gets to me, but im genuinely really happy for her and i cant wait to see her.
"Even Deeper"
So my time is almost up here, but before i go i want to get into something that i mentioned earlier. In E) above i mention the whole tattoo/piercing attraction. I was thinking about it more tonite and i realized its more than just an aesthetic thing. getting pierced and tattooed has become the final frontier for anything remotely spiritual for me. i find that my attraction level has a severe dropoff if she doesnt have any ink or piercings for me to play with. and on a deeper level, i feel like right off of the bat i have less in common with this person. i realize that people get inked and pierced for different reasons, but we all kind of get to the same destination. alright i think im done.
almost.
"La Mer"
I dont think im going to sleep tonite, but i feel better after getting this out. im open to any questions, comments, or thoughts. and by the way, everyone whos still here with me should go add gschnider , hes pretty slow on the whole updating your profile thing, but maybe if enough of you go add him hell get on the ball. for those of you that hung out until the end, thanks.
heres a picture of trent singing "hurt" last night
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i think suzy kabloozy wants to meet up with us if we go to scotland...also my friend jaime.
we'll talk later.