I met someone. And there’s this immediate and intense connection. It’s perfect right now. If I leave, it stays perfect in my head. No drama. No arguments. No fights. Just this perfect moment that will forever be etched into my mind and memories. I know I will long for it and pine over it, in the end. But I don’t want to get hurt again. I don’t want to feel like, eventually, everyone leaves. The only truth in my relationship history. I feel like I’m better off alone. I can’t fuck anything up that way. I can only stay in my own world.
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