fuck

Really need to stay motivated. So much going on but at the same time I am somewhat missing home not dramatically but home is home and sometimes you just want to have the same comforts you are used to. However, the good here out weighs the bad. The recruiter I am working with here seems dedicated to helping me out and at same time looking out for my best interests health wise not wanting me to go balls out but easy back in to a work out routine. Showing him dedication works out for me too. I have a ruck and my old uniforms and boots also own a lot of good running shoes and know all the things it's going to take to get my strength back and better than before. On the art side, I've been drawing but lose focus also the same happens with the design stuff. My friend who is coding the website wants me to look into using wordpress which I'm not really down with. I don't want to go cheap and easy just because i'm small and new. I want this to be all me and my own work not some pre fabbed generic site. I know it's gonna be more work that way but fuck it it's my shit. I guess I will have to give it some time and get more stuff ready for it taking a little longer than I want. Gonna have to have some shirts made I'm thinking 3-4 t-shirts to start 2 hoodies and I can get misc. buttons and stickers made as well. I'm thinking of having other people help get custom stuff made like one off pieces of art and what not as well. Focus and dedication right now are what I need. That's absolutely my short coming at the moment.