I just found out my lil brother leaves for Iraq in August. We've never lived together but this is hard news. I love him and I just don't want him to get hurt or worse. I know he signed up knowing it could happen and I've always respected his decision, in fact if I could have gone, I would have. But alas they wouldnt take me. But I feel bad for his wife and unborn child too. Who knows whats gonna happen there? He's an MP and will have one of the most dangerous jobs in the military. Searching vehicles. This is just a bummer on top of everything going on in my life. Worst thing about it is I found out from my sister-in-law, he didn't even call or write me an email to tell me. Well, i will keep my fingers crossed for him and pray for the best.
So....I'm gonna edit this and add some shit.
I have talked to my dad about this situation with my brother and he's gonna call him so...that makes me feel better 'cause my brother hasn't been talking to us that much lately. I guess thats understandable given the circumstances but eh...it is what it is. My dad found me a place to stay down in Florida. Not sure I want to go but I may have no choice here given the circumstances I'm in. But we shall see.
I talked to my buddy Art yesterday at dart league and he wants me to draw up a tattoo for him and he's gonna let me do it. So that's cool. Hopefully, we do it this weekend. That would be pretty sweet. It won't be the first I've done but it will be the first I've done of my own design. I hope it comes out alright. My confidence is pretty shakey here. It's a big step in my life. A step in the right direction, but its huge to put your art on someone else, permanently. You only get one shot. He's got confidence in me though so that helps. trade off is I have to let him tattoo me. I'm not even sure what I'd want...He said I could pick some flash so I might just pick some Sailor Jerry stuff. I don't know...this is the one time in my life I don't know what I want for a tattoo. Hmm... weird. I'm drawing him a rose. Pretty simple, though I'm trying to figure out better ways of doing it and adding shit to it. Which I've been seeing other artists do and i really like it. Like pieces of skulls and shit. Just want to do something cool for him and something you aren' t going to see everyday.
Musically I'm getting pretty bad with the musical ADD. I'm listening to like everything and getting frustrated with everything. But I picked up some older stuff the other day, some Dylan, Springsteen and the Germs. I met this guy with a Germs tattoo the other week and he was totally thrown for a loop that I even knew who they were. I was like "Dude, I totally know who they are. I just don't have any of their stuff." He was like "well you should pick it up dude" and gave me this more obscure band's cd and I'm digging that stuff too. I had heard of them but I think that it was in passing with some old school punk friends of mine. But yea...thatas that. Listening to the Deftones covering Simple Man at the moment. It really is that bad...
Feelin a bit better about where I'm at, at the moment. But its hard still. I don't have a phone or any source of income so like last night when I met a girl I thought was cool I totally had to pass on that and really seems that a lot more girls are into me at them moment. I don't know why...its kinda weird but hey it is what it is. Even girls who I really just don't want anything from except friendship which is really all I can give anyone anyways. I don't want a relationship but its hard when you'd like to get to know someone and you are in this spot. Where at any other time you'd have the resources to do whatever. My sister-in-law offered to pay my phone bill for me but I declined as to I don't know when I will be able to find a job. That and I kinda feel like i don't need a phone and I kinda like it. Weirdly enough. Like you have to go out of your way to try and talk to me. But hey it is what it is. I'm going out to a job placement service tomorrow morning. Hopefully that will pan out. I need to start working again. Badly.
Well it is off to do what it is I do.
PS Check out United Nations(the band) they're fucking nice.
So....I'm gonna edit this and add some shit.
I have talked to my dad about this situation with my brother and he's gonna call him so...that makes me feel better 'cause my brother hasn't been talking to us that much lately. I guess thats understandable given the circumstances but eh...it is what it is. My dad found me a place to stay down in Florida. Not sure I want to go but I may have no choice here given the circumstances I'm in. But we shall see.
I talked to my buddy Art yesterday at dart league and he wants me to draw up a tattoo for him and he's gonna let me do it. So that's cool. Hopefully, we do it this weekend. That would be pretty sweet. It won't be the first I've done but it will be the first I've done of my own design. I hope it comes out alright. My confidence is pretty shakey here. It's a big step in my life. A step in the right direction, but its huge to put your art on someone else, permanently. You only get one shot. He's got confidence in me though so that helps. trade off is I have to let him tattoo me. I'm not even sure what I'd want...He said I could pick some flash so I might just pick some Sailor Jerry stuff. I don't know...this is the one time in my life I don't know what I want for a tattoo. Hmm... weird. I'm drawing him a rose. Pretty simple, though I'm trying to figure out better ways of doing it and adding shit to it. Which I've been seeing other artists do and i really like it. Like pieces of skulls and shit. Just want to do something cool for him and something you aren' t going to see everyday.
Musically I'm getting pretty bad with the musical ADD. I'm listening to like everything and getting frustrated with everything. But I picked up some older stuff the other day, some Dylan, Springsteen and the Germs. I met this guy with a Germs tattoo the other week and he was totally thrown for a loop that I even knew who they were. I was like "Dude, I totally know who they are. I just don't have any of their stuff." He was like "well you should pick it up dude" and gave me this more obscure band's cd and I'm digging that stuff too. I had heard of them but I think that it was in passing with some old school punk friends of mine. But yea...thatas that. Listening to the Deftones covering Simple Man at the moment. It really is that bad...
Feelin a bit better about where I'm at, at the moment. But its hard still. I don't have a phone or any source of income so like last night when I met a girl I thought was cool I totally had to pass on that and really seems that a lot more girls are into me at them moment. I don't know why...its kinda weird but hey it is what it is. Even girls who I really just don't want anything from except friendship which is really all I can give anyone anyways. I don't want a relationship but its hard when you'd like to get to know someone and you are in this spot. Where at any other time you'd have the resources to do whatever. My sister-in-law offered to pay my phone bill for me but I declined as to I don't know when I will be able to find a job. That and I kinda feel like i don't need a phone and I kinda like it. Weirdly enough. Like you have to go out of your way to try and talk to me. But hey it is what it is. I'm going out to a job placement service tomorrow morning. Hopefully that will pan out. I need to start working again. Badly.
Well it is off to do what it is I do.
PS Check out United Nations(the band) they're fucking nice.