fruitless

why do i stand commited to the person who has fucked me over more times in a year than most people go through in a lifetime? what's going on in my head that puts thourh all this pain. i might be making a huge mistake by moving back in with her. but i guess this is what i want. i just can't do this thing without her. one day it will be better, but i don't know how long i can go on when me and her are living day to day.