im having a bad day.
nothing substantially bad has happened, i just feel horrible. my best friend came down today and i got to hang with her for an hour or so. i miss her so much already. it was nice seeing her but the moment she left i started feeling like shit. like i dont belong with my other friends. like they just dont understand me. and this saddened me horribly. i think i just need to be more social.
which brings me to my next thought, what to do this weekend. i want to do something, i just dont know what. friday i kinda want to go to synthetic, a club in hollywood. only problem. i dont dance. yeah thats kinda a big one. it wouldnt be so bad if my best friend still lived here cause i know wed totally people watch and stalk hotties all night. id have fun. who am i gonna do that with now? some friends from school really want to go but im not sure id feel comfortable with them. theyre super cool too its just the whole i dont dance thing thats fucking everything up. if we were going anywhere else id be totally for it. its the club part that i dont know about. id probably end up on the smoking patio all alone all night. saturday night is a toss up between a sgsb party and one another girl from school invited me too. either way id probably go by myself. thats not a big deal its just that my friends probably wouldnt mix with those crowds. the problem though is that i would only know like one person at each party. im kinda shy so i figure either one will either blow horribly or rock depending on who i meet. and sunday is reserved for sleeping in and working.
oh whats a girl to do. really tell me.
and i also lost my wallet the other night. fucking pain in the ass. now i need to go get a new school id, drivers liscence, aaa card, atm card, barnes and noble membership card (heck yeah), etc. fuck me!!!
nothing substantially bad has happened, i just feel horrible. my best friend came down today and i got to hang with her for an hour or so. i miss her so much already. it was nice seeing her but the moment she left i started feeling like shit. like i dont belong with my other friends. like they just dont understand me. and this saddened me horribly. i think i just need to be more social.
which brings me to my next thought, what to do this weekend. i want to do something, i just dont know what. friday i kinda want to go to synthetic, a club in hollywood. only problem. i dont dance. yeah thats kinda a big one. it wouldnt be so bad if my best friend still lived here cause i know wed totally people watch and stalk hotties all night. id have fun. who am i gonna do that with now? some friends from school really want to go but im not sure id feel comfortable with them. theyre super cool too its just the whole i dont dance thing thats fucking everything up. if we were going anywhere else id be totally for it. its the club part that i dont know about. id probably end up on the smoking patio all alone all night. saturday night is a toss up between a sgsb party and one another girl from school invited me too. either way id probably go by myself. thats not a big deal its just that my friends probably wouldnt mix with those crowds. the problem though is that i would only know like one person at each party. im kinda shy so i figure either one will either blow horribly or rock depending on who i meet. and sunday is reserved for sleeping in and working.
oh whats a girl to do. really tell me.
and i also lost my wallet the other night. fucking pain in the ass. now i need to go get a new school id, drivers liscence, aaa card, atm card, barnes and noble membership card (heck yeah), etc. fuck me!!!
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i'm sorry to hear about your friend too! i am the same way... i have 2 best friends in the word and they are the only ones who i can be totally myself with...but they are friends from school, which means when summer hits and i move back home, they stay behind...far away.. it sucks..