frankie18

i feel a bit funny right now. heres my cute girl update for today:

i sat alone at the end of the row
and tried to look casually inviting.
i saw her walk in, alone
wearing a blue sweatshirt and glasses.
she walked toward me and smiled,
my stomach felt fluttery.
but right when she reached me
a girl i know swept in and took the seat.
i muttered quitely under my breath
fuck.
that seat was meant for her
and now someone else was sitting next to me.
she continued to the next row
and sat next to a boy i know she knew.
all throughout class i couldnt stay focused,
not when her head was resting on the seat in front of me.
after class ended someone began to talk to her,
so i delayed rising from my seat.
i timed things perfectly
and got up right as she turned to look for me.
where are you going now she asked,
i replyed i dont know but do you want to go with me.
we walked to the robecks on the south end
and bought huge frozen yogurts.
she ordered one with strawberries, blueberries, and rasberries
and i ordered the same.
we talked about the summer
and about how we both want to visit spain.
she said she cant wait for her roommate to move out
because for a month and a half shell be alone.
and shes really excited about this
because then she can walk around without wearing clothes.
an image of her popped into my head,
and i bit down hard on the plastic spoon.
she smiled and laughed,
i think she caught me then.
she got excited when a song came on the radio
and her hand rested on my knee.
suddenly the skin below her hand,
below my dark blue jeans was all tingly.
i looked at her and smiled
and she laughed and blushed.
we spent an hour eating our yogurt
but the rest of the time is a blur of giggles and laughing.
i tried to make it last as long as i could
but eventually we had to say goodbye.
as we walked in opposite directions, away,
i stopped and turned around.
our eyes met but i failed to gain the courage,
to say anything.

can you tell that i feel all giddy and girly right now?
tuesday is the final and the last day ill see her. i plan on writing a note saying id love to hang out during the summer with my number. as i make my way to my seat ill drop it off on her desk all secret secret covert ninja style. then she can do as she pleases. now is the hard part though. ive got four days to revise my words a billion times till they seem perfectly inviting, inticing, and maybe even a little exciting. what the hell am i going to write?

oh and she looks quite like this member but younger, just turned nineteen. two weeks ago even she walked into class with her head shaved. i was amazed.