10. right now, i feel like more of a writer than i have in a long, long time. ever, maybe. not because i've written this incredible poem that's so good it makes my head spin, because i certainly haven't. but because i spent the past two days actually crafting a poem-- choosing the form i wanted to use, deciding upon subject matter that actually fits the form, and crafting the poem to make it do what i want it to do. for once, it wasn't me ranting about cancer or depression or something. it was me taking an idea, something i thought might work, and making it real. this is a wonderful step for me. if i can do it once, i can certainly do it again. i'm really proud of this poem. i've written better things, yes. but they probably didn't get as much work as this has, and will. i am a happy little plaingurl.
9. my uncle's friend marsha (the woman i babysit for) bought me this totally rad shirt. it's all meshy and cartoon/comic-y and she's so funny. it's rather transparent, and she was like 'you will wear a bra with this, right?' and i laughed at her and said yes. come now, i might be outgoing enough to wear a relatively transparent shirt with a corresponding-colored bra. but that's about as far as it goes.
8. i want to go dancing this weekend. since i'm horrible dancer, this will mostly be me making an ass out of myself. who wants to come and witness it?
7. my discman finally broke. it's been a long-time coming, but i wanted it to last me...well, longer. sigh. i will miss it dearly until i can get a new one.
6. my aunt is so cute. today i was out with her for a bit and she called her partner to tell her she wouldn't be home until late, and it was so funny because she was like 'when a relationship is new...' and they've been together 3 years. i hope that after 3 years i can still feel giddy and happy and like new with someone someday.
5. i still have not seen f9/11. and now spiderman 2 is out, and no matter how much i hate hate hate kirsten dusnt as mj, i have to see that too. i'm such a nerd.
4. i've been listening to a lot of belle and sebastian lately. right now i have 'like dylan in the movies' in my head. it's a good song.
3. it has occured to me that staying with my uncle and spending time with he and marsha is a completely foreign world to me. they'll spend more on a hotel room for one night than i spend in a few months. they'll spend enough money that i could feed myself for a week on one meal. it's so foreign and crazy and i feel so greedy and wasteful when i do it. being poor has spoiled me being spoiled.
2. it has occured to me that while my time here is certainly rejuvinating, there are definitely people (both people i already knew and people i've met up here) that i'm going to miss. a lot. just means i have to visit more often
1. i feel that this has been a relatively substantive post. the majority of numbers are actual things that i had to say, rather me just being like 'lalala weeeee.' this pleases me.
and 
for everyone.
*EDITED* to say:
the light in my room is currenly burnt out, and i haven't bothered fixing it yet. it happened last night. it's so interesting...walking to a dark room where i can not find light freaks me out. i don't know why. it's weird. end of story. time to go and get freaked out by my bedroom.
9. my uncle's friend marsha (the woman i babysit for) bought me this totally rad shirt. it's all meshy and cartoon/comic-y and she's so funny. it's rather transparent, and she was like 'you will wear a bra with this, right?' and i laughed at her and said yes. come now, i might be outgoing enough to wear a relatively transparent shirt with a corresponding-colored bra. but that's about as far as it goes.
8. i want to go dancing this weekend. since i'm horrible dancer, this will mostly be me making an ass out of myself. who wants to come and witness it?
7. my discman finally broke. it's been a long-time coming, but i wanted it to last me...well, longer. sigh. i will miss it dearly until i can get a new one.
6. my aunt is so cute. today i was out with her for a bit and she called her partner to tell her she wouldn't be home until late, and it was so funny because she was like 'when a relationship is new...' and they've been together 3 years. i hope that after 3 years i can still feel giddy and happy and like new with someone someday.
5. i still have not seen f9/11. and now spiderman 2 is out, and no matter how much i hate hate hate kirsten dusnt as mj, i have to see that too. i'm such a nerd.
4. i've been listening to a lot of belle and sebastian lately. right now i have 'like dylan in the movies' in my head. it's a good song.
3. it has occured to me that staying with my uncle and spending time with he and marsha is a completely foreign world to me. they'll spend more on a hotel room for one night than i spend in a few months. they'll spend enough money that i could feed myself for a week on one meal. it's so foreign and crazy and i feel so greedy and wasteful when i do it. being poor has spoiled me being spoiled.
2. it has occured to me that while my time here is certainly rejuvinating, there are definitely people (both people i already knew and people i've met up here) that i'm going to miss. a lot. just means i have to visit more often
1. i feel that this has been a relatively substantive post. the majority of numbers are actual things that i had to say, rather me just being like 'lalala weeeee.' this pleases me.
and for everyone.
*EDITED* to say:
the light in my room is currenly burnt out, and i haven't bothered fixing it yet. it happened last night. it's so interesting...walking to a dark room where i can not find light freaks me out. i don't know why. it's weird. end of story. time to go and get freaked out by my bedroom.
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the_alchemist:
Wow. Sounds like it's been a great summer so far. You write your journals really well, I'm sure your poetry is excellent. Are you gonna post this poem here for us to enjoy, or is it one of those too personal things? How long are you going to be in town for? Sorry we haven't had a chance to meet-up and hang-out yet. Hopefully we'll have time before you leave. Saturnalia and I have had really hectic schedules this summer. 
adhamlyn:
ya know i would like to read this poem. sorry i haven't posted here more often. i've been a bad friend i'm afraid. will try to fix that in the future.