filmguy79

Well thanks to all those both on and offline who wished me a happy birthday!! Love you all. It was a great day, spent eating too much chinese food, drinking coffee, and watching The Wedding Crashers (seriously, that movie was HILARIOUS).

Let's see...hmmm...Well, I have made it now to the day my therapy begins, and though I woke up at 3:30 this morning and fell back asleep at 7 am til 8:30, I feel pretty good today. Just need a little coffee to perk me up. LOL...Never used to be a coffee drinker, but I am now. LOL. I *like* to be awake. After 5 years of smoking weed almost every day, and using klonopin to control my anxiety, being awake and alive is a luxury I wasn't sure I'd ever be able to deal with. At least on that "I'm an adult" level. LOL...

Went running on my birthday at the gym with a friend of mine (been running for oh about two or three weeks now, can't exactly remember which...swiss cheese brain!), but while I was there I weighed myself, and I have lost 10 pounds! I am proud of me.

I may be neurotic. I may sleep 5-7 hours a night, I may have to work out to feel human, but I am losing weight, getting in shape, and for the first time since I turned 20, I feel ALIVE!!!

Love you all people. Love yourselves, be yourselves, and KNOW THYSELF. That is my new motto. I love you all.

Adam