First off I'd like to thank all of you! None of this could have been possible without your constant support and love. It's been two years and not only have I gained followers but a real support system from a bunch of you who are constantly writing to me and pushed me to move forward with Suicidegirls. Im not going to lie, there were constant doubts with 3 sets out and none being bought. Last week I had honestly lost hope when my 4th set hit a week in and I hadn't even reached 2000 likes in my set Cruel-Tea. But I stayed hopeful with everyones sweet comments, members, hopefuls, and even SGs.
To my complete surprise, shock would be the best word to use. I was sitting at my desk at work on Wednesday when I received a notification saying I had an email from Suicidegirls. It took me 5 full minutes of staring at my phone screen to finally open it. AND IT STILL ISNT REAL. Finally almost 3 years down the line. Im an official Suicidegirl.
Its really strange to finally be able to say that when the first time I ever saw a Suicidegirl was already 10 years ago on Tumblr, @radeo . And if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have been inspired to ever even look up what SG was. So thank you for the inspiration Radeo! To be myself, be free, accept my body and feel comfortable in it. 10 years later and here I am.
Next I'd like to address my change of identity! FENIX SUICIDE. Yup thats right, Jackiewicked Is gone. This is definitely a step forward with my modeling career and honestly, life. Theres been a lot of change in my life constantly. And Im going through another one of those changes as we speak. And that will be another video update in itself. Reason being I chose the Phoenix to represent me and who I am is because Im constantly living by its rules, burning and rising out of the chaos. Its also way more memorable than going with Jackii or something like that. Id love to know what you guys think of the change of name as well!
Finally Id love to just say thank you one more time. To the members who made me feel amazing constantly and helped me come out of my shell. To the staff at SG, thank you thank you thank you. I can only imagine how hard it is to pick girls with so many ladies constantly applying to be SG and for that I am so thankful that I was chosen. To my fellow SGs that supported me as a hopeful, how selfless of you ladies to look at the little people haha and still push them forward to want more. To the SGHopefuls, that congratulated me and are still fighting for the pink heart! Thank you for your constant sweet words that kept us all pushing forward and will continue to do so! And finally to Walter Rodriguez and @madnessphotography , without you guys Id never have such amazing sets to even make it this far.
So cheers! To bursting into flames one more time, just to be reborn again.
- Fenix Suicide
